just got smacked in the face by my own spirit guides bc ive been doubting my intuition for so long and searching for external validation only made things worse
moral of the story is, Your Intuition Is Right (TM)

about three weeks ago i went around seeking free pulls and such for a certain situation. just for some confirmation here and there. and i got some! all was lovely and encouraging. and it resonated to a T.

then about a week ago, i got a little frantic with my need for assurance.

i was looking up youtube pick a card vids, i was spending tons of money that i shouldve been saving, i was overthinking every last detail.. and then the messages started turning bleak.

there were red flags everywhere. literal "do not enter!" signs with every reading i got.

and it scared the fuck out of me. it made me feel so.. obsessive and desperate. what happened? things were looking so nice before this. what did i do? how did i mess everything up?

a few days ago, i began doing daily grounding exercises and protections / cleanses. i also did--

a few readings for myself. the same hopeful messages from the beginning showed up. but i couldnt shake off the fact that everything else was saying the opposite. what was going on? how could i even trust what i was seeing?

and then it hit me. i was aimlessly shuffling my deck,

feeling MISERABLE about this situation and where it was headed. and suddenly i received the loudest mental channeled message i had ever heard, and my deck confirmed it for me. i was in shock. i kept shuffling , and another anxious thought popped up. doubt creeped in.

but reassurance (thank u ace of cups and the sun) flew out inmediately after.

the reason why everything turned so grim was because i was losing faith in myself. i wasnt trusting my own messages. so i had blatantly outlandish tweets and signs thrown at me, one more unusual than-

the other, and when i saw a message claiming horrible lies, i knew there was something wrong. so i turned to my soul. my heart. what i knew deep down to be true. and i got the answers i needed. not a drop of anxiety within me.

please, please trust your intuition. do not rely on

outside sources or general messages or , hell , even paid readings to an obsessive amount! it will make you questiom yourself, and itll leave you more puzzled than you were before.

you know whats meant for you and what isnt. and if you get lost along the way, youll damn sure

find your way back.

if you read all of this, i love you and i support you. doubt and insecurities sneak up on you so easily, but your gut / intuition will never lead you astray. you all are so, so powerful. please never forget the clarity and wisdom you hold. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💞" title="Drehende Herzen" aria-label="Emoji: Drehende Herzen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💓" title="Schlagendes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Schlagendes Herz">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💗" title="Wachsendes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Wachsendes Herz">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💝" title="Herz mit Band" aria-label="Emoji: Herz mit Band">