STORY HOW I WAS SAVED:

I just want to say, I may not have the biggest problems in the world but I didnt realize until this year that I was sexually harassed for 2-3 years when I was younger. After moving away from my home country, i eventually grew to be different. +

At the age of 10, I thought that something was mentally wrong with me for thinking certain things. I thought that I was a freak and I guess deep down I knew that I had been abused but pushed it away. +

I blamed myself more for what I had become at the time rather then my abuser because I thought that it was a mental issue. I began to grow helpless with myself, I began to hate myself not only for what I had become but all the bullying, thinking that I did something wrong +

To be bullied. By the time I was around 11, I felt like I was a lost cause and that I couldnt turn back and that I was stuck in a place I belong in, in the darkness. Stuck in a place meant for sinners. I was hanging by a thread, barely holding one to my will to live. +

I felt like I would never amount to anything in life again and i felt so alone, so abandoned. No one knew I was struggling. Most days I felt like I couldnt breathe and I still blamed myself rather than my abuser. +

I have become very sensitive and it barely took anything to make me cry. With the slightest comment I would tear up and the bullying just continued to get worse. I was on the verge of leaving everything behind, my life, my family and my future. I was ready to let myself go. +

My classmates then began to talk and talk about this k-pop group and how they were. These people were friendly. They were talking about this song called I Need U and Dope and how they were all so good. They told me to listen and watch them and even suggested more songs. +

I got home that day and I believe it was around the middle of November. I decided to being listening and watching them. They call themselves, Bangtan Soyeondan or BTs for sure. At first I was really hesitant with they're music but I grew to love it in just 2 weeks. +

I constantly replayed I Need U, I just felt really connected to it. It was not around November 30th and BTs had just released a music video and decided to watch it with. The 11 minute live video got me so hooked on the song even if I didnt understand, it sounded so beautiful. +

I looked for a translated lyrics and after about 1 a minute later, I have found it. I played the song and rest the lyrics as the played. +

I started crying, the lyrics got to me and it made me feel wanted in the world that I have some much to like for. I finished the sing and wiped my eyes. I felt secured by that song. That was the day I became an ARMY. +

After years of listening to them. they had finally released the Love Yourself series. I still blamed myself at this time but it didnt bother me as much. And then the group started talking about love yourself. +

That was their beautiful message to everyone and I cried. It told me that they love and will accept me forever. By that time I began to change myself, trying to spread self love and trying to love myself at the same time. +

I wrote this thread I to exposed my childhood traumas and with BTS you are always welcome and ARMYs will always love one another for anyone who need it. To tell you that BTS saved me literally. Thanks for thread.

#BTSsaveme #thankBTS #BTSWORLD #ARMY