Thread by @shevari01, Hi everyone, whoever and whenever you're reading this ^

Hi everyone, whoever and whenever you& #39;re reading this ^_^
I want to tell that I& #39;m here #newontwitter, and as I created this account, here& #39;s a #Thread with you about what I consider a great and special personal story, and a little help with what you& #39;re about to see next, please...

One of the main aspects that has marked my life is that I have Asperger& #39;s Syndrome, if you& #39;re not familiarized with what it is, it& #39;s a condition derived from the autistic spectrum that affects the social abilities of the people with it, as well as been diagnosed with OCD...

I& #39;m not sure if this is also an aspect from the Asperger& #39;s Syndrome, but I& #39;ve also experienced some issues at coordinating some activities and understanding what other people tell me; but also, about socialization, a feeling that I& #39;ve had for years, even after being diagnosed...

Is really not knowing if there& #39;s a place for me in the world, I& #39;ve felt so appart from many things and people around me that I question if I am really living how I really need, deserve or want, even if they like the same things as me, many people feel so different from me...

Basically, since I& #39;m feeling mostly appart from many people and I don& #39;t have many friends who I& #39;ve noticed that comprehend me and how I usually feel, I consider that living with Asperger& #39;s Syndrome may be challenging, and because of it, I& #39;ve been in psychiatrical therapy during..

Most of my life, I guess since I was 5 years old.
Also, remember that I mentioned before about my motricity? As I don& #39;t know how it may be psychologically speaking, the point is that I may be very clumsy in many activities I& #39;ve been involved, even if it& #39;s with my family...

Most of the time, it& #39;s challenging for me to understand the feelings of other people or what they want from me, and as I tell you, it includes my family, but even if it& #39;s thought for me to comprehend the feelings of the other people, I comprehend when they& #39;re angry, and due to my

Clumsiness for most of the time, I actually get when people get mad at me, and it& #39;s something that makes me feel bad, and even if I don& #39;t really know how it may be psychologically, it& #39;s something it& #39;s been told to psychologist for years.

After all these tweets, I still remember that I was about to tell about a better personal story.
Last year, there was a time I was experiencing some thought feeling, since most of the time I& #39;ve felt as I told you before, misunderstood, having some few friends and dealing with my

Own clumsiness, I started experiencing some *death* related dreams and feelings (You know what I mean), many nights, because of what I was feeling or even real experienced, I had dreams that concluded with my dead, caused by some serious reasons, even I used to wake up sweating

In the middle of the night for how anguishing it was, I didn& #39;t want to tell my family that I used to dream about that frequently, since I knew it could be very anguishing for them, and also, we couldn& #39;t have any psychiatric appointment because they didn& #39;t have any schedule...

But I knew that I needed help and I did looked for help online.
On the page 7 Cups of Tea, in which you can find listeners from all around the world to talk to about personal assistance (Recomended page if you ever need help, btw) I tried to look for help, and fortunately, I did

find help. I met a girl from England named Maria (With Italian ancestry) even though I didn& #39;t sleep the night I talked to her, I guess it was worth the experience, since I actually felt that I got rid of a big consternation in my life in many ways, and a week later, it was very..

Good news for both of us that I had a whole week without having that kind of dreams of feelings, and also I completed a great feeling, is that I could tell somebody every single thing I& #39;ve felt and with that person being a great friend for me, someone very close I could find

whenever I need; thus, Maria became a great and close person with me, to the point that one day she told me the sweetest thing somebody has ever told me: "𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒶 𝓈𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇" she loved me so much just to proclaim herself as my sister, and consider that I don& #39;t

Have any biological sister and she doesn& #39;t have a biological brother either, and I do feel as a brother for her as well, one of the things that I apreciate the most, since for me, having siblings is a blessing and great experience in many ways

This is a picture of Maria I found on my old phone, and as I also have screenshots of the most heartwarming and sweetest things she& #39;s shared with me, I& #39;ll share them with you as well...

She shared this with me on Discord (By the way, she told me that the "X" mean kisses)

Looks like my old phone was so outdated that it couldn& #39;t handle the hug emojis xD

And also, there was a time she surprised me in the most heartwarming way. As I& #39;m actually a native Spanish speaker, she wrote this in Spanish for me, it says "I love you too, I hope you have* a calm dream, my special brother"

And also, as our countries are in different time zones, I remember during new year& #39;s eve she wrote me this when it was 12:00 A.M for her (Note, even though the account is different, it& #39;s the same person)

It& #39;s been such a great experience knowing that, despite how insecure I& #39;ve felt socializing during years or feeling that I there& #39;s no place for me in this world, there& #39;s actually somebody who has loved me that much, and it& #39;s something I appreciate from the bottom of my heart

However, even though it all went so fine, some weeks ago, there was a big problem that hurts me in many ways, and it& #39;s that I haven& #39;t known anything about her and haven& #39;t found her anywhere, and trust me, I& #39;ve tried to look on any site I& #39;ve been with her

Even though her Discord (talktomema #1120) is still there, I haven& #39;t been able to send messages to her, and this is the very last message she shared with me

After all I& #39;ve thought and felt, I realized she still misses me, but sadly, I can& #39;t reach her on there; so, one of the main reasons on why I& #39;m making this #Thread is because I want to spread my story with a very special person to help me find her once more and let know I& #39;m still

There, still there for a person who once got to call me her "Favourite person in the world" for me, it& #39;s a very good enough status for not leaving apart someone who has taught me that there& #39;s still a place for me in the world, if you have the oportunity to read this, please help

Me sharing this until it could reach Maria with one purpose: Let her know I still need her, miss her, I& #39;m proud enough of her to let everybody know how grat she is and I wouldn& #39;t be able leave her despite some difficulties, I tried to reach her on other ways that haven& #39;t worked

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