I want to take a minute to talk about the importance of ADHD medication.

Today when I woke up I felt completely paralyzed by anxiety and stress. I’m talking about not-being-able-to-leave-bed-because-it-is-overwhelming stress.

Took meds? An hour later and I’m fine.

Don’t get me wrong, I still have a lot to do and I do not know if it will all get done today. But I am no longer paralyzed by not being able to figure out what to do first or buy all the little steps that are involved in getting started with a project.

Part of executive dysfunction can be decision paralysis-this is when you cannot figure out where to start some thing or what to do because your brain cannot sort out priorities. I struggle with this quite a lot. Especially when I’m unmedicated.

Medication does not take out all the problems in my life, but it does make what looks like a pile of clothes and papers and assorted pens and inks not just a pile, but rather something that I can separate and clean up without crying.

And for those of you who don’t have ADHD this might seem like it’s just childish or trying to avoid responsibility; but it’s not. It’s having a world that is so overwhelming to you because your brain just can’t figure out what to do first and so it gets STUCK.

They increased my dose of Wellbutrin yesterday and I am already feeling a good difference. A difference where I think I can get done what I need to get done today and I will go to bed feeling satisfied instead of beating myself up.

When you have a brain that likes to do a lot of things but also becomes overwhelmed by those same things life can be pretty challenging. Thanks to medication and in my case also a combination with exercise, life doesn’t feel daunting today.

And that’s just so important when it always does.

Anyway. Take your meds, go for a walk, and remember that you only have to live your worst days once.