tw: depression

realizing that all your irl friends have left you, your mutuals who you thought were your friends don& #39;t care about you as much as you care about them and they end up leaving you, seeing everyone dating, getting a job so easily when you are struggling... it hurts

i don& #39;t know what i have done exactly ? am i boring ? yes that& #39;s for sure. i& #39;m tired of being considered as a weirdo, it just brings back the stereotype that people have on autistic people, and the loneliness is back and it hurts so deep

I& #39;m this hurt that sometimes i feel like i& #39;m too ugly for them? too boring? too insignificant. i stopped reaching out to people to see if they would actually reach out to me and turns out it& #39;s not the case. so... it explains everything. sorry for being me.