tw: depression

realizing that all your irl friends have left you, your mutuals who you thought were your friends don't care about you as much as you care about them and they end up leaving you, seeing everyone dating, getting a job so easily when you are struggling... it hurts

i don't know what i have done exactly ? am i boring ? yes that's for sure. i'm tired of being considered as a weirdo, it just brings back the stereotype that people have on autistic people, and the loneliness is back and it hurts so deep

I'm this hurt that sometimes i feel like i'm too ugly for them? too boring? too insignificant. i stopped reaching out to people to see if they would actually reach out to me and turns out it's not the case. so... it explains everything. sorry for being me.