I`m not okay but being able to express that is a healthy way of dealing with my mental health. I am not scared to speak openly about feeling suicidal, I experience it frequently & I express it, sorry if that makes folks uncomfortable but I do so without shame. Silence kills.

If I had a penny for every time somebody said "what have you got to be depressed about" I would sleep soundly without financial worries. Depression is not a mood choice, it is an illness I have lived with since around age 14 when I was diagnosed.I alone am responsible for my MH.

I hate the "relax and stop worrying about everything" often said to me also, again my anxiety is not a mood choice & it`s part of my MH issues. Both can at times be crippling to the point I just want to make it stop. I want the constant onslaught of noise in my head to cease.

Behind my lens within nature my head is perfectly quiet, I don`t think-I just feel the world around me. Every single picture in this thread was taken on a day when I wanted to end my life.I take control of my MH by picking my camera up & forcing my arse out the door to nature.