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#nofgm thread about having second baby. My anxiety level heightens so badly because of my first experience in child birth. Instead of rejoicing. My fear is absolutely consuming. I understand English much better. I feel so scared. Recovering from the birth was horrific.
When you understand the language before and now you can.. Its super scary. You will hear everything they say. Maybe some medical terms i might not. I know i can ask questions. I ask myself. Do I need to know everything. Too many things going on in head.
So I start to develop horrible headaches at 24 weeks into the pregnancy. I go for my appointment. I tell the midwife about my headaches.
Doctors checks my eyes because my of my headache. He says you are not going home. He tells me I need CT_scan.
Doctors checks my eyes because my of my headache. He says you are not going home. He tells me I need CT_scan.
My anxiety is reaching fever pitch. I panic. I cry .I ask why CT. Scan. He says. Back of your eyes the veins are swollen with blood. I can see he is very worried. I knew my eyes something was up with them. I couldn't look properly to my sides.Eveytime I sneezed. I felt my head
Felt it would explode. scan was done .they said. They need to do lumber puncture. Which was truly horrible. So this went for weeks. Lumber puncture every other day and eye scan which they some medication in eyes to make me blind for 10 minutes i think it was.
I completely shut down. I dont want to know anymore. I am consumed by everything. Especially birth. headaches are getting worse. I am looked well. But I feel like screaming. Why is this happening to me. I also felt doctors weren't telling everything because I was pregnant
What they didnt know was. I am petrified of giving birth period
Literally trembling with anxiety. My pressure was up and down mostly up. 24 weeks to 35× weeks i was in hospital. My poor son I missed so much. My husband amazing and great husband too
Literally trembling with anxiety. My pressure was up and down mostly up. 24 weeks to 35× weeks i was in hospital. My poor son I missed so much. My husband amazing and great husband too
He comes with our son every morning. Its a relief for me to see them. I love his hugs .my son is extra special with his hugs as if he knows I need so much. He cries everytime they are going home so am I.
They decide they can't continue with lumber puncture anymore as the baby is developing beautifully. They decide C_Section. My son is 35+ weeks. Gorgeous little boy. I am relieved he is OK. He is breathing too fast. Tbey rush him to icu put him in an incubator.
i am the hospital. I am getting better. My blood pressure goes down. My headaches disappear. Its as if like a socket was on and no its not. I am occupied by looking after my tiny baby. I sing for him.
I tell him you two boys put me through alot. One vagina ripped to shreds and you my stomach opened up. But its worth it . My.level of anxiety truly caused me so many medical issues. Even then ,there was no discussion of FGM at all. Today they both over 6 feet tall men.
Truly blessed invidual I am. Can imagine if I wasn't in UK. I couldn't dare to think about the outcome. Maternal death is so high in developing countries. May Lord with women.
