tw internalized biphobia ??? im not sure

previously i said im going by queer bc the term bisexual and what i felt for quite some time didnt rly align w eo but uh i guess now after i did some thinking and analyzing n shit im back to using bisexual! i never actually

officially stated i was gonna go with queer, it was more like i thought and considered going by that. but after rly going through all sorts of stuff all my feelings/actions do point to that of bisexuality. yes i dont fancy being in a rs with men nor marrying one

but i still somehow sexually attracted to them. my preference leans towards any gender really than of men. at some point i thought i was lesbian but i realized the attraction i felt towards men isn't what u call comphet so thats off the list. not pansexual as well as i have my

preference. i cant rly explain this well but point is i had a period where i was confused about my own sexuality and now i think im not? at least for now? i guess one of the main reasons why i was confused in the first place

was bc i found out my preferences could switch from time to time. there were times im very into girls and there were times where i fancy uh imaginations with men also. i thought i was being wrong and wasnt bisexual enough and as the result i wasnt confident to have

a label at all. not that its wrong with not having a label for urself, but i felt a sense of unbelonging, like i dont fit anywhere else and that drove me crazy for MONTHS. personally for me having a label is crucial for my mental health in a way so going through that was

a nightmare. so yeah back to the point i think im going to continue labelling myself as bisexual! i realized now being the way i am is still valid, im not half gay im nothslf straight im BISEXUAL and experiencing what i experienced from time to time does not make me

any less of a bisexual. there might be times in the future where ill get anxious over the same thought again i know i will though i really hope i dont have to go through that again !! so everytime i feel like that this thread could be a reminder

that im valid in fact very valid and theres nothing wrong with me at all <33 not expecting anyone to read this but if u did....i feel bad for u bc i rambled on SO MUCH im so sorry