i think it& #39;s cool that ffxiv is a bullshit goofy fantasy video game and it has better character writing than 100% of self-important pain porn games with their gritty realism

like elidibus sputtering to a stop and having to say out loud "of course i can& #39;t stop doing this because i may not remember why i& #39;m doing it but all i remember is saying i& #39;d do it so if i stop doing it it& #39;s like i& #39;m dead and all of this pain is for nothing" is the realest shit

that& #39;s how trauma works

that alienation from not just other people

but your own identity

your own ability to have an identity

is what makes trauma so terrifying and isolating

it& #39;s what makes other people so cruel to the traumatized

because it& #39;s easy to see them as inhuman

you could shoot a hundred arrows through a hundred gruff dads in a hundred brown video games about who gives a shit and not get anything remotely that realistic about what it is to suffer the loss of what makes you who you are

and that& #39;s

pretty cool

also ffxiv& #39;s community should learn something from that

maybe

also sorry for the spoiler on The Themes but just

holy shit