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Last but not least, if you chose Pile 4 with the Rose Quartz, this is your spread
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Last night, I was in my bed and I was thinking about one of the cards I managed to see in this pile. Only one thing and one thing only crossed my mind.
I thought to myself, "The last pile is about vulnerability."
I thought to myself, "The last pile is about vulnerability."
To those who picked this pile, I have one question to ask you and I want you to ask it to yourself before I continue.
Why do you settle for far less than what you deserve?
Why do you settle for far less than what you deserve?
It feels like you have everybody's best interest at heart but your own. And often, you think that by making the greater sacrifice on behalf of other people, it makes you a better person, but all this does is drain you.
And for whom this applies to, your own reckless tendencies get you in trouble... a lot. I know I need to be gentle with this pile because you are deeply sensitive people who care about other people and it's to your detriment at this point.
Not everyone has your heart, baby.
Not everyone has your heart, baby.
Some of you have gotten close to the wrong person and you are paying for it right now. For some of you, this is in the past and as a result you have learned to put up better boundaries, but someone caught you slipping.
If there is someone in your life that you feel like deserves better or "needs" your help, I need you to turn around and direct that energy towards yourself because you are not good for it. You cannot correct people or stop them from making mistakes. They exist just like you.
You can still be a compassionate person, show up for people, be a beacon of light in their darkness without laying yourself down to take blows on their behalf.
You have a really bad habit of saying yes when you mean no. And you need to learn how to say no.
You have a really bad habit of saying yes when you mean no. And you need to learn how to say no.
You need to accept the greater truth here that you are having a human experience. And this human experience of yours is meant to teach you where you stop and other people begin. This is not easy because we are venturing into codependency territory.
Some of you may feel very excluded despite trying over and over again to prove that someone matters to you and in so many words, this person spit in your face. As a result, you feel like you mean nothing, like you're useless, like you can't do anything right.
You have to hold yourself accountable and hold other people accountable. I've said before that being somebody's yes-man will destroy your relationships. This is one of the problems with the spread.
Because you have neglected yourself in the process.
Who heals the healer?
Because you have neglected yourself in the process.
Who heals the healer?
Some of you have gotten so sick of opening up to people and then it's the wrong people, the people who leave you feeling abandoned, misunderstood, and alone.
You give and you give and you give, they take and they take and they take, where's the reciprocity?
You give and you give and you give, they take and they take and they take, where's the reciprocity?
On God, when is the last time you did something nice for yourself? Something that has nothing to do with other people, something that has nothing to do with work, something that is simply just for you to enjoy. Some of you have lost your passion. And life is dull.
For some of you, these people that you show up for are so tough on you where you respond better to softness. That tough love shit don't work on everybody. The more people are tough on you, the more you feel compelled to be this perfect person that you're not.
You don't treat them like that.
A part of me wants did you tell you, "Teach them how you want to be treated," but they won't listen to you. And honestly, have they ever listened to you? Have you ever felt accepted by them? Is their love conditional on what you will do for them? You'll find out if you stop.
And some of you have already stopped, and the difference in the way that they treat you is just so telling. no matter how much you care about them, you know you will have to leave these people behind. Accept it.
This is for your self-preservation.
This is for your self-preservation.
These expectations other people hold you to no matter what type of relationship it is, romantic, platonic, familial only holding you back. You hold yourself back every time you just give into what they want because what they want matter so much more than what you want.
How they feel matters so much more than what you feel. Who made you feel like you don't matter? In what ways were you neglected? Who conditioned you to be this way? What circumstances conditioned you to be this way?
Black sheeps of the family and friends, are you reading this?
Black sheeps of the family and friends, are you reading this?
I'm trying to be gentle, but the truth is, the love you're so desperately seeking from somebody else regardless of if it's one person or multiple people, you're never going to get it. They will give you crumbs, pats on the back and go about their life while you go without.
You will have to eventually prepare yourself for some type of separation. All the love you have given has gone to waste. You can still correct your behavior, but they are never going to correct their behavior and this is where you differ.
But one thing you have to do starting today is stop. Stop seeking refuge in the arms of people who are never going to hold you, never going to understand you, never going to love you. They've already made their judgements about you. Their minds are already made up, they're wrong.
If you are trying to replicate something you never had, this is coming through. it's the same types of people cycling in and out your life and you just keep running into walls. Your sense of intimacy is destroyed because of it.
For some of you, this means you don't fuck with anybody. It's less complicated that way.
"I like being alone,
come around here,
spend plenty of time on your own,"
—Cold Sweat by @Tinashe
Some of the people who chose this pile have been fucked over a lot.
You're loners.
"I like being alone,
come around here,
spend plenty of time on your own,"
—Cold Sweat by @Tinashe
Some of the people who chose this pile have been fucked over a lot.
You're loners.
But your own comfort zone as a last resort defense mechanism separates you from everyone, from all the bonds you could have.
For whom this applies, you understand the motives people have. You have walls up because of how vulnerable you've been.
For whom this applies, you understand the motives people have. You have walls up because of how vulnerable you've been.
And some of you attach yourselves to anybody that seems trustworthy, anybody who will eagerly show you attention and it's not what it's cracked up to be. What other people do is beyond your control, absolutely, but this is still unfair to you. And you internalize it.
"Stood on my roof and tried to see you
forgetting about me,
Hide the details,
I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible as you
make me feel
I wish that I was as invisible as you
make me feel,"
—The Pros and Cons of Breathing, @falloutboy
forgetting about me,
Hide the details,
I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible as you
make me feel
I wish that I was as invisible as you
make me feel,"
—The Pros and Cons of Breathing, @falloutboy
