I’m not loved by many and usually a loner, so i made my peace and now i take myself on dates, and i go for walks aimlessly just for the sake of it. For example today i was listing to Louis Armstrong while dancing in the street and it costed 0 LE but i was the happiest.

Of course there’re nights where i cry myself to sleep and feel tremendously ugly, yet i always thank god cause its unfair and unhuman to always always be happy. When i’m sad i literally count my blessings and feel guilty for being sad and not thankful

Btw i suffered real chornic depression for 4 years, i should have taken meds but i liked my sadness and i was romanticizing it, i thought someone would pick me up and love me but no, life ain’t a movie or a book, you have to pick yourself up no matter what

You are gonna live for as long as god wants u to, so you either choose to be happy and okay with yourself or you choose to suffer and live in pain. This affects no one but you, so be wise about your choices, and again it’s okay not to be okay but just don’t make it a lifestyle.