okay screenshot spam incoming but i was like, hmm, how can i pleasantly pass this evening? ah yes! rewatching the guanyin temple scene

zanzan is too powerful. i am unworthy of invoking his name LOOK AT THE THINGS HE DOES

this is both heartbreaking and hilarious

HENSHENG MY GIRL

he's so beautiful god

:'(

I AM SO SAD!!!

no hesitation. NO HESITATION

how fucking METAL is jgy, though. emotional anguish aside
- i don't think he'd had a hearty meal before the party started
- people burned/fried to death in front of him
- got his hand burned as well
- the burning thing is a poison which is INSIDE HIM RIGHT NOW
- no arm!
- &er-ge.

i wonder just how much fun did wyz have. like. i'm in a box! i'm in a box of sand! AND I AM DEAD :D i would be having a ball of my life

it really must have been hot as fuck because wyz's breathing FAST

i'm so sorry for not providing anything of use but i'm just marveling at the face journeys
also, somehow i'm pretty sure the sweat is the real thing, considering everyone's foundation keeps on melting on their faces

SU SHE WAS RIGHT!!! EVERY SINGLE WORD OF WHAT HE SAID!!!

"yes. traitors won't be tolerated in gusu lan"
oh so outer disciples should just obediently go and die because you didn't consider them important enough to save? that's what you're saying, hanguang-jun? hm? HMMM?

chinhands, two questions: 1/ just how much of jgy's "even if it didn't happen, you'd breathe the wrong way and someone would blame a disaster on you anyway" speech comes from his experience, and 2/ how devastated you are that it's all of it

god.
as in 'i am exclaiming' but also as in 'zhu zanjin, noun'

you know what, xiyao owns my soul but i really can't help but feel my heart squeeze when someone says even one sentence against jgy, even a stupid insult, and sms instantly whips out his sword. isn't it romantic

and i mean -- if only it was nmj, back then. or lxc, even though he couldn't have and jgy knew that. if someone of higher status went this ride or die for one stupid little a-yao.
no, i am not tearing up, maybe YOU are

ah! i forgot what jc says in his next sentence. oh man. oh man. i literally made a pained noise

hol up for a sec i gotta dog

the guanyin temple part (because it's not really a scene, it's a whole arc, ok) is so rich in incredible facial work but oh, this one. exasperation, then a weak customer service smile. i love. i love. i love both jc and jgy and OH, my whole heart

i'm going to assume everyone knows all the important things that ran through my head so i will now talk about the less important one, namely
sweater (robe?) paws a-yao

love this expression! lopsided not-even-a-smile of 'a-yao has gone too far, internally'. of 'a-yao has had enough but did people care? no! they kept on delivering so OH, will a-yao deliver BACK'

OMINOUS WHISTLING OMINOUS WHISTLING

eyelashes...

THAT'S THE THING

AND AGAIN

(screams into fist) a-yao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

did wwx scare jgy into a minor qi injury because that blood spitting Was Something, huh

honestly, the whole guanyin arc could be used to make a horror movie trailer
(i think i RTed someone's faux-trailer of an au where wwx goes full yllz and becomes a villain. the power of editing!)

and once again the stagger of a man who should have gotten some sleep like ten years ago, and is now living on pure spite and fear but Will (attempt to) Show You nonetheless

>:'/

so one can say this is not the best night of zewu-jun's life

i will now communicate with emoticons only, because i am unable to otherwise.

8-)

- this means 'i'm cool, xiyao can't hurt me*'

*xiyao is, however, hurting me as we speak

:''''''''''''''''''(

instantly. instantly, so that i couldn't take a clean screenshot because he was taking his hand off his sword even before jgy's knees hit the temple floor.
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, ZEWU-JUN.

there are two parts of the conversation: jgy, lxc and their relationship problems, and yunmeng bros experiencing the wildest okay? okay?? okay??? okay???? OKAY????? of their life

'I KNEW I WAS RIGHT THINKING THAT EMOTIONS ARE FOR LOSERS, THIS IS /GROSS/'

'can we. can we stop talking and just get to killing each other, PLEASE'
i don't give a fuck about lxc ripping his robes or drunk shenanigans, THIS is comedy

'ok. so we will not start killing each other. alright. this is fine. i will now play a funky tune inside my head'

zewu-jun...
(he is moving his right hand further away from the sword, clenching it into a fist)

'are you fucking seeing this, lan zhan'

and then they fucked away to dongying and Everything Was Cool

the face of a man who would really, really prefer to be trippin his balls off. what did you put in that incense burner, a-yao! that was so weird. haha. anyway, let's go to bed. i'm a little bit tired. i want to sleep soundly, wrapped in your warmth

LOOK AT HIS SAD EYEBROWS HE IS S O S A D

part 2 in the 'tragic and heart-breaking but objectively hilarious'

WOBBLY LIPS

i am too verklempt to take screencaps every time i feel an emotion (it's not possible) but once again i am very fond of the xiyao/xuexiao parallel, in which the "bad" person confesses their crimes and the "pinnacle of all virtues" person is not outraged by the /fact/ of crimes,

but only by the extent of it. you could have cut their fingers! a hand! a whole arm! this is what xxc is chill with! and well, you were blackmailed, but you didn't have to go /all the way/! what, pray tell, extent of self-protection would be okay with you, zewu-jun?

lovely.

and now we SCREAM

'what do you mean you had no choice? it was your marriage!' yeah, exactly

I AM SAD look how wet and miserable he is!!! fuck!!!

squints, is jgy saying that he's become a 'paranoid and hypersensitive man' allude to having slept with qs before the wedding? wink wink to novel readers? i don't remember if the lotus pier jgy hating convention mentioned anything about that orz
(time for a rewatch ig?)

er-ge you're so beautiful you're breaking my heart right now but once again killing his cunt of a father Was Not The Chief Offense Here

(although i like the 'wait, you can just? off your father if he gives off bad vibes? i don't think so? fathers are untouchable regardless of what they might or might not have done, right? right??' interpretation)

the most beautiful man

so when he hits jgy--when his palm connects with his cheek!--he closes his eyes.

a-yao!!!!!!!! guanyin!!!!!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!

ok but i mean let's say jgy wanted that to happen because he wanted jzx dead, but. what else could he do? this is one thing i like about the 'jgy actively orchestrated jzx2's deaths' because technically he didn't do shit. did he force them to go? didn't wwx say he has full

control over both resentful energy and wn? did wwx have to be Like This, even when jzx came to calm them down? hmm?
i really like that because if jgy didn't admit to murder being his intention, and sending minshan to bang out some tunes, all three had made their own decisions!

(also, i'm ignoring jgy playing from jinlintai and reaching this far because come on.)
so this is sort of why i prefer the 'jin zixun was just a bitch to su she and karma got him, etc' version, not entirely because jgy is less of an universal villain there, but because it's more

about the entangled net of people's choices and animosities and, well, flaws. jzx really didn't think for a second that it could be anyone else than wwx. su she was boiling that hate inside strongly enough that he went fuck yeah why not cast a curse with a side-effect that will

stay on my body for years after that! and wwx simply lost control. things happen! isn't that fucking lovely!!!

gotta love that jin ling's trauma and despair over losing his parents when he wasn't even six months old is STILL this strong! fuck yeah! we haven't suffered enough in this club

hurts just a little that amongst the things that jin zixuan could do because he was the better son jgy lists staying at home with the love of his life and playing with his child. just a little. a tiny bit. not that much

i am so sorry to my past self who entertained interesting ideas such as 'jgy loved his son and yet he had him killed' because now i am in the 'jgy's food was poisoned and on that day they were eating together' camp. 'but eli! complex villain!' BUT MORE PAIN

zewu-jun is not looking.

i honest to god have no emotional capacity to imagine feeling anything but overwhelming pity and pain when jgy gets kicked down the jinlintai stairs. yes! both times!! specifically because people say 'this time he deserved it'!

and like. 'jgy getting up and walking upstairs like it's no big deal except he's barely got the energy to move, creepy!' maybe! but i'm more thinking about the fact that even as a chief cultivator and leader of the richest, most powerful sect he STILL reexperiences his past

trauma because as it turns out in the eyes of some people /nothing/ will change the fact that he's a lowborn son of a whore who /can/ be kicked down the stairs. this is a thing you can do! simple as that!

that aside, minshan, i like you and you are right, but you should have bled to death like half an hour ago. ah, those cultivators!

jgy says 'it wasn't even that he wouldn't let me hold you' and JIN LING'S FACE, GOD

takes a short break to listen to a happy song, maybe look @ tumblr or twitter for a sec, definitely not think about how jgy just really did want to have a happy family And Then It Ended Up Like This

:)

i am not having fun i am Not Having Fun

i honestly don't know which version makes me more weak, the one where jgy hides the string in his ABDOMEN or TH

??????????????????????

so add that to the list of jgy's injuries. STRING IN WRIST AAAAAAA i'm in pain just by thinking about it

UH WYD LAN ZHAN

i'm appreciating wzc's facial muscles. jc looks horrified like, all the time. his mind is just one big WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. yes he did call jgy the word but it didn't stop him from looking like this when lwj went and chopped his hand off

and again!

and AGAIN zzj is incredible

thank you...

and people write jin ling hating jgy after all that!!! disrespecting him!!! months or years after guanyin temple when it was LESS THAN AN HOUR after jgy confessed to PLANNING HIS FATHER'S DEATH

𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙔𝙀𝙏

I AM SO SAD, GOD

so there are actually two people whose clothes have jgy's blood on them. isn't that fun, and entertaining

:''')

also taking this cap reminded me of the fact that polish has a pet name that's basically 'little gold' and i'm just. ggghhhhggggg

:''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''')

sighs in awe at wwx stopping playing and just. tapping chenqing against the coffin. HOP IN you NAUGHTY LITTLE SABER

ok so that is cute (lwj's hand behind wn)

i am pondering the motives behind placing a bloodthirsty saber in the same tomb as its master, who was, let me remind everyone, led to a qi deviation, beheaded and then dismembered. then again i'm not a demonic cultivator.

maybe it's like a cat and a jam sandwich, they spin

i loved that little scene from the very first watch. that, i remember. i felt that normally the boss character would barely blink but jgy and sms really cared about each other and i ;_;
once again, a very romantic death

;__________________;

oh yeah, and add the tiger seal to the spicy mix. seriously, guys, have you not heard about grave robbers? do you want a xue yang repeat? seriously

i don't want to be dramatic and say 'the last'

but

oh, just wait

so i looked, frame by frame, and it didn't seem like lxc had any pill in his hand so before the real shit starts i'll just say i'm very happy that ji li had to desperatedly slobber over lhk's hand

a whole lifetime, between

(hoarsely) i still can't believe cql made such a change from the original material and let lxc help jgy, then elope with him. certainly a brave mov

the plot's about to oh! go wild and my notifs are intense as well lol

but let us stay like this for a while maybe

yes, i did that. sorry

and now we're entering the mass hallucination zone. this didn't happen in reality. everything ended well, it's just a cruel au

HEY I'M JUST SAYING BUT THIS IS SO FUCKING TRAGIC? SO HORRIBLY SAD? SO IMPOSSIBLY UNIMAGINABLY SAD OKAY oh i am going to cry for real tonight i can feel it

a short story about looking and not looking

:'''''(

by the way: i opened the stopwatch on my phone and measured the time between the 'thank you, zewu-jun' and shuoyue piercing jgy's chest.

one minute and twenty five seconds.

you're welcome.

dear fucking god

iirc there was this interview where wyb was asked what lwj is afraid of, and answered 'wwx' and we were all like hey, that actually. works

well,

useful tip: do not watch "the untamed" (2019)

why did i do this to myself

(hoarsely and through tears) and this is how it feels like to ship xiyao, and exist in the xiyao corner

..aaaand the horrible xiyao emotions music BEGINS

god

https://twitter.com/leatherbookmark/status/1292960712952885248

to catch and never let go

泣

(exhales) once again thank god for wang zhuocheng

oh. um. approximately after that moment the sound stops working. for a while i was thinking that the completely silent shots were very good. i'll try to reload

no. still silence. oh well

a-yao. "a-yao".

i'm just sitting there like this being sad but not even similarly in terms of depth

have a definition of love!

and thank you everyone for suffering together, it was very fun. and sorry for spamming your TLs! i am very in pain right now and not strong enough for the rest.

hence, We Are Very Miserable.