I don’t think people appreciate what Black people go through to just talk about racism.

Not even to call it out. Just to have a conversation with another human. About their skin.

The. Anxiety. Alone.

Like say you encounter racism at work.

When we talk about racism I'm the workplace, there's an assumption that reporting is the beginning of trying to do something.

It's not.

What if your boss is a racist too?

What if the owner is? What if reporting it just makes the target on you bigger?
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What if you're a freelancer and the racist is the person who brought you the work?

On my first meeting with one company currently remaining nameless?

The first topic of convo?

That a key person is a Trumo supporter.

No preparation before hand, in the many email convos and phone calls we'd had .

No segue as to why that was relevant, as if I'm not working for a bunch of racists ever.

How? As a Black woman in tech HOW?

It was a cute game to them. They expected a mouse.

They were.....

Incorrect.

If you know me you know not to mess with if mine:

1- my family. Chosen or biological.
2- my. fuckin. money.

Rich or poor don't drag shit into my ability to make my living.

I'll come back to how that ended later.

The point is. I don't know if that incident is out there preventing certain opportunities.

I don't look for work, it looks for me. That's how good I am. I can afford to say "fuck you, you're racist, here's why.

Not everyone does.

And we're it in question two if your job isn't at stake.

A huge IF that will knock out 50% of the racisms ever being reported.

Two is if it's worth the emotional risk and other complications.

White people don't come with labels that say "fair and just"

or "has successfully recruited two of your co-workers to a white supremacists group."

That's why so many if the reporting stories start with a person who has had enough

It's never "well that was their first brush with racism, I guess they're too weak."

We graduate from "people hate you for no reason & will leverage it against you" when we start watching TV.

I'm so fucking tired.

You go through it.

Then you have to decide the safest response, mentally, physically, professionally.

IF you can do anything, what? Whole lot between an email or reporting the issue.

Then you have to ask yourself if the response is light enough to make your point but firm enough to be taken seriously.

Cuz damn white people are AMAZING at being offended that we're offended.

I'm not even being an asshole. Just from a creativity perspective. It's something.