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Time for a short late-night mental health thread
I have C-PTSD due to medical trauma and I also live with anxiety and bipolar disorder. My brain is kind of a living hell, but for a while I was learning to manage. This was not a linear process.
When covid hit, I was working in an assisted living. I was terrified of this thing, and aware of its reality, for weeks or even months longer than other people. But I was doing okay. I wasn’t in contact with anyone positive.
(That is to say, I learned about it earlier.)
Then, I moved cross country. I got on a plane in May. I consider myself very lucky I didn’t get sick along the way. I quarantined from my housemate as best I could for over a week. And I was still okay.
Then, I moved cross country. I got on a plane in May. I consider myself very lucky I didn’t get sick along the way. I quarantined from my housemate as best I could for over a week. And I was still okay.
I got a job that I love that involves working with a vulnerable population. And then I came in contact with someone positive. And then the flashbacks started.
I got tested, and I came back negative. But I’m petrified by this virus. My daily life has been consumed by high anxiety, flashbacks, erratic sleep and appetite, and weeks of feeling physically ill. (Jury’s still out on whether or not that was a bug. But I think it was stress.)
There’s no point to this thread, really. Just, letting people know where I’m at and why. I need extra support and have no idea where to start. I see a therapist, but I need a specialist. I take my meds. I use my skills. And it’s still unmanageable.
I’m just tired, and scared, and seeing now that this might be life for the next year or more. And I don’t know how I can possibly live like this through it.
