As I see that lexi is now making a thread about me, I'm going to speak my peace. I'm hoping she post all of our recent messages, as well as the ones she's already posted. (1/?)

I originally posted my post, after seeing several post on my time line about how people were blocking people for speaking up about star frag trees, and not BLM. As someone who is really happy to be in a time when I can take part in a movement such as BLM, I was upset. (2/?)

I didn't want to get blocked by someone just for being upset that the trees were taken away as well, so I made a statement as one of the participants in the BLM movement, that a lot of us did have the same energy, and that- (3/?)

I didn't think them being blocked for it was just, so I was going to unfollow people who said similar things as I didn't want to be blocked for a mutual opinion over the trees being removed. After posting it, I realized lexi had posted something similar & I unfollowed her. (4/?)

I didn't read her post correctly, and assumed she was blocking those who posted, not what she was actually doing which was blocking those who DM'd. I had deleted my post due to an error, and reposted it after that. After being told I was being subtweeted- (5/?)

I went to her page and saw her post that were about me subtweeting her, and unfollowing her. I then re-read her post and saw my mistake. I reached out to clear it up, and let her know I was not targetting her as a black woman, because she included it in her post. (6/?)

She then told me, "I promise you I do not care. Quit with the performative shit we don't care if you went to BLM protests. Lmfao. I said I'd unfollow anyone who sent them to me not posted. Bye Stop claiming to be an ally then be ignorant as to why we feel that way". (7/?)

Which made me confused as my intentions were not to be seen as performative, but genuine to express why I felt the way I did about the blockings. I then replied to the part of her comment where she told me that she meant DM's not post- (8/?)

-With, "I know? That's why I said I read it wrong, and admitted to my mistake?", to which her reply was "Okay your thread is ignorant just letting you know. Continue tho.", I took that as rude, but figured it was ignorant because she thought It was still towards her. (9/?)

I had failed to realize why it was truly ignorant, and thought it was just based on my wording and how it seemed directed to her. So I said, "As I said my thread is just towards those who are blocking people for sharing their opinions on being upset over it, not towards- (10/?)

-post which after re-reading I realized is completely valid. It's understandable to block someone for dm'ing you something you don't care about. I just read it wrong, and didn't see the point in blocking someone for what they post, if you don't feel the same unless it's- (11/?)

-harming to someone. And yes, my thread is most likely ignorant because I'm pretty shit with words, and even fucked up when reading your post wrong. I wanted to just say it wasn't to be directed at you, and I'm sorry." Which was terribly worded and still avoiding- (12/?)

the problem at hand, that I failed to realize. At this point I began posting in discord about how it didn't make sense to me, and I felt it was rude. She had replied to my message with "No it's ignorant because it's ignorant. You're perfectly coherent it's just ignorant." (13/?)

Again I felt this was a rude way to handle it because I thought I expressed clearly enough I wasn't trying to target her in anyway, and I didn't see why she was mad still. "Well I'm sorry, I still have a lot to learn. But I still stand by the point I poorly attempted to- (14/?)

-make, that people shouldn't block others for posting on their timelines about being upset over star trees being removed. I will remove the post as it is ignorant, and did not come off as I intended.". Around this time someone had asked who it was- (15/?)

-and I believe a little before they asked she had retweeted a comment on the post before I deleted it, in agreement with wanting it to be deleted that went back to me. So I told them who it was as the people had already seen the comment, and could see who had retweeted it. (16/?)

I sent her that messaged regarding me having a lot to learn, as I felt I needed to learn how to not offend people properly, I was very blind to how I was ignorant, as I didn't see how my post was bad still, but respected the wishes of the comments and deleted it. (17/?)

Her reply was, "Don't pull that I have a lot to learn in my DMs pls. Thanks." Like I said previously I thought this was just all over a simple misunderstanding and tried to clear it up, by stating I really was still just learning because I didn't know- (18/?)

"I have literally even came to you to ask for advice before because I'm still learning though? But okay.." Her reply was as follows: "Congrats? Your post was nasty. Idc what you did lmao. If you're still learning then don't make ignorant threads look more into it first" (19/?)

I didn't get how I could have looked more into it, and kept talking about it in the discord because I was upset, and confused at how she handled it still thinking it was a misunderstanding. A friend of mine then brought me into a 1on1 and explained how I was wrong. (20/?)

They showed me that the tweet was performative in the sense that I was basically bragging about what I had done for BLM, and I didn't realize that. I had stopped posting on discord by now, and was more focused in seeing where I was wrong. (21/?)

After realizing I was ignorant, and in the wrong I sent Lexi a message that reads as follows: "Okay. I see that, I was very ignorant. I presented myself as performative instead of genuine which wasn't my intentions. Thank you for informing me of where I was wrong, as I (22/?)

didn't understand it. I will look more into the situation at hand before making post on it fueled on purely emotions. I'm sorry for bothering you in DM's, and I'm going to leave you be now." I wanted to take this as a learning experience and move on as she had read it (23/?)

and not responded. I then started looking into the Lebanon incident because I was sharing post about it, and unaware of the full situation. A little bit later someone on the discord stated that I should just take the L and drop it, which I did by then- (24/?)

So I told them, "I already did-" And then another comment came up on it, "frankly, if a black woman is telling you you’re being ignorant about anything regarding race, they’re probably right. i know that this channel is for “tea” but that doesn’t include- (25/?)

-sharing private dms without the consent of the other party. it isn’t exactly her job to continuously educate you, either." I simply replied, "This is over and done with, I apologized for being ignorant and we both dropped it- Both parties involved moved on." They came- (26/?)

-back with, "before or after you dragged her on discord? because it didn’t seem “dropped” when you were still talking about it here.", Note: I said the stuff in discord during the time me and her were actively talking, before I ever sent the message above stating how- (27/?)

-I realized I was ignorant, and sorry for my actions. I then said, "I didn't drag her, I openly expressed I was upset with how the situation was handled, I'm sorry I believe if someone sends you something they have the right to post it?- (28/?)

-She can post it too, it's the same conversation. That ordeal happened about 30 or 40 minutes ago now, I expressed to her I was ignorant, and my intentions were wrongly place, and I apologized. Like I said, we have both since dropped it." (29/?)

I always post my DM's as I feel it if you share it with some one you should be okay with them posting it, just as I was okay with my messages, and discord post to be shared, because I put them out there. I said after that, "I was in the wrong, and ignorant. I felt- (30/?)
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-bad that she took it wrong, and then realized how I had expressed it. I apologized since. It's over. I want to learn from this experience, and move on." I saw how the DM's could be harmful after that and deleted them, then said in the chat, (31/?)

"I've deleted the DM's now, since that seemed to cause an issue as well." A few moments after this Lexi reached out again, and it wasn't what I was expecting, but I understand. "I hope you know you're fake as hell and someone sent me you speaking- (32/?)

-about it in the discord lmao Good luck Charlie." I knew who they were talking about, and didn't pay it any mind because I even stated it was in the heat of the moment. "Okay? Do you want me to send you the screen shots of where I went into dm's with someone too, (33/?)

and realized where I was wrong before sending you the message above where I said I see that I was ignorant? Time stamps, and everything. I spoke out about you when I was upset just as you were still subtweeting, and since then I realized I was wrong." (34/?)

Her reply is as follows: "Nah. You shared my user when I didn't say shit about your name So" I thought it was interesting because as stated before I feel as if you send it, you should be okay with people posting it. And that she had retweeted a comment with my name- (35/?)

-in it that is still present on her page. So I said, "My user was also shared in the process? You retweeted comments that were on my post showing my name?" She said, "I didn't post ur name lmfao I could've" which I would have been okay with so I said- (36/?)

"And I wish you had during that time honestly because maybe I would have realized sooner I was in the wrong." because it's the truth, if I was called out on it more I might have realized sooner where I was wrong, rather than letting my emotions get to me and being- (37/?)

-childish over the whole thing. "I'm not your teacher, Lmfao" I said, "I'm not saying you are.", she replied with, "If you didn't want your user shared don't make stupid ass post that's your problem. But bet." then included a screenshot of the first comment I made (38/?)

regarding seeing it all over my timeline, and yes my comments were still in the wrong, followed by her message, "U thought this was it?", I stated, "That was in the beginning when I didn't realize I was wrong?" She simply said, "Lmao alright dude." (39/?)

I was typing out a message regarding that screenshot to further explain it when she said, "Keep black folks business out of your mouth Tbfh. Bc you're pushing it." I sent this then, because I had realized I was in the wrong for that post, (40/?)

"The comment above was before I even reached out to you- Either way, I'm not asking for you to teach or forgive me. I acknowledged I was in the wrong, and deleted the DMs. The messages are still there as a reminder of my mistake. Your name isn't in them. (41/?)

I want to learn from this experience, not be ignorant in the future, and move on. Thank you for pointing out I was ignorant, I apologize for my emotion fueled actions." To which she replied with, "You're not an ally for doing any of that shit if you thought it was cool- (42/?)

-to post that shit in discord and show my user when BW are attacked on this app everyday for Being "aggressive" And you contributed to micro aggressions against me as a bw With ppl calling me rude etc", so I then replied to try and show I realized what I did was wrong. (43/?)

"I realize that now, and I found the way you handled it rude, until I realized you had a reason to be, because I was being ignorant. I'm not expecting an apology to make it all better, I just want to learn from this and move on, and try to do better in the future.", (44/?)

"BIPOC don't have to be nice to ignorant people. You dmed me unprovoked. If you wanted to move on you shouldn't of posted my shit in discord. I could've posted your DMs on here too you know. Bc if anyone had a right to post them it was me" (45/?)

I felt the need to clear up I did not DM her simply as an attack but it was to clear up what I had thought was a mistake "I'm not asking you to be nice to me. I dmed you because I tried to clear up a misunderstanding, when I didn't understand what you were really upset- (46/?)

about, because I wanted to try and make things better. I posted that stuff before I realized I was in the wrong, and wanted to move on. I completely understand where you're coming from now, or at least to the best extent I can as I'm not a POC. You could have posted- (47/?)

-them, I wouldn't have holded it against you if you did either, especially not now as I was in the wrong. When posting that, I have since deleted anything relating to your account, and realized my ignorance. I admit I was in the wrong, and my actions were childish.- (48/?)

-I'm trying to learn from my mistakes, and do better in the future. I apologize for what I did, and how I acted." I was in the wrong, and realized it. I want to learn from this, and try to do better as a person. She then stated, (49/?)