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The 2nd of August 2018 was the worst night in my life, an unforgettable mistake, that left me with a scar on my arm. The 2nd of August 2020 was the worst day in my life, an unforgivable mistake, that left me with a scar in my heart.
I was lucky to still live after that night, I was just too much of an idiot to learn from it. When I had that blade in hand, I was unable to think, I was unconscious. When I had my phone in my hands, I was able to think, I was still conscious but acted the same way.
Now that y& #39;all gave me some time to truly think about my next actions, to think about how I should consider myself, to think about how I should grow up, from all of these mistakes, that hurt so many of y& #39;all, breaking hearts and trusts.
I lost the people that mean more than everything to me, my closest friends, some that I considered family. I disappointed them, I betrayed them. I& #39;ve made them say and do things I never expected from them, and I fully deserved to hear those.
Like I said what I did was unforgivable, but I still want to apologize dearly, to everyone that it may have affected.
I truly mean it, to those who loved me, even to the people that didn& #39;t know me as much. I wanna dearly apologize to everyone that know about what happened.
I truly mean it, to those who loved me, even to the people that didn& #39;t know me as much. I wanna dearly apologize to everyone that know about what happened.
I went too far into where I wasn& #39;t supposed to head to. Basically everything that happened was my fault, because I was too stubborn to believe that I could control my emotions. I went the wrong way and kept going, even if I was aware of it.
This experience broke me, to the point that I& #39;m scared of what I can do to others, or to myself even. I& #39;m ready to pick the pieces back up, but this time to build myself better. I& #39;m still crying to this day when I look at all that I lost everyday, wishing it all never happened.
Now all I can do is hope, without expecting, that I can hear y& #39;all& #39;s voices, and laughs again. Hope that I can get to see y& #39;all& #39;s messages and drawings in the future. Hope that I can join y& #39;all& #39;s journey again.
I don& #39;t necessarily want you guys to forgive me, nor to forget about what happened. I just want you guys to know how I truly feel about this whole event. I want you guys to know, that I& #39;m sorry. I want you guys to know, that I WILL change.
I promise.
I promise.
I promise to become a better friend. I promise that I will now truly try to learn from my mistakes.
I promise, to become a better person.
To those to whom I said farewell, I wish you the very best, stay amazing, you truly made 2020 better for me, and I thank you, dearly.
I promise, to become a better person.
To those to whom I said farewell, I wish you the very best, stay amazing, you truly made 2020 better for me, and I thank you, dearly.
To those who chose to stay with me, I know that my word isn& #39;t worth much but I made those promises knowing how hard it& #39;d be to keep them. I will try my best. I dearly thank you, for giving me another chance at being your friend, and for motivating me in doing so.
