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Looking back at the last 5 years I can’t believe how much my self-perception and mindset has changed.
5 years ago I was at my lowest weight. Why? Because society told me it was beautiful to have a thigh gap and visible abs.
Looking back at the last 5 years I can’t believe how much my self-perception and mindset has changed.
5 years ago I was at my lowest weight. Why? Because society told me it was beautiful to have a thigh gap and visible abs.
What society didn’t tell me was that to achieve that I’d have to risk everything, my social life, my mental health and most of all my life.
I spent my youth being caught in my own ED world, friends? - what‘s that? All that mattered was being „fit“! Unbelievable
I spent my youth being caught in my own ED world, friends? - what‘s that? All that mattered was being „fit“! Unbelievable
Shouldn’t I have realized that this is not the way it’s supposed to be? I definitely should have..
Looking back I’m glad my parents and I have such a close relationship and that they supported me in every way. I don’t know where I’d be without them
Looking back I’m glad my parents and I have such a close relationship and that they supported me in every way. I don’t know where I’d be without them
It took a while to settle in that I HAD to change something, in the end it took a broken finger which made me stop obsessing about working out and eating, to get me back to reality.
I always told myself that I was the one responsible for so I can get out of it as well.
I always told myself that I was the one responsible for so I can get out of it as well.
So that’s what I tried. Thanks to the incredible support of my family I slowly gained some weight back and lost the fear of eating, because you know what? Eating a chocolate bar won’t make you fat, who would’ve guessed!
The next two years were full of ups and downs and I have to admit that the thoughts of starving again where pretty dominant.
It took yet another injury for me to fully wake up!
It took yet another injury for me to fully wake up!
I gained 5kg in 6 weeks due to going from working out 6x a week to not being able to walk!
And I figured I felt way better, my joints where no longer hurting, my hair was stronger, my skin less pale.
I realized I was still beautiful or even more so with a little more weight
And I figured I felt way better, my joints where no longer hurting, my hair was stronger, my skin less pale.
I realized I was still beautiful or even more so with a little more weight
what a Perfect timing because during that time I got told that I got a scholarship to study in Norway.
This time one thing was for sure - I wouldn’t let my ED ruin this time abroad.
Sounds straightforward and that’s actually exactly what it was.
This time one thing was for sure - I wouldn’t let my ED ruin this time abroad.
Sounds straightforward and that’s actually exactly what it was.
One character trait of me I perfectionism - If I do something it has to be 120%
Of course there were lots of days where I hated my body but then I looked at the pictures from 2015 and told myself that I never want to look like this again
Of course there were lots of days where I hated my body but then I looked at the pictures from 2015 and told myself that I never want to look like this again
This time abroad in 2017 was life changing. I started socializing again, going out, enjoying life and most of all got rid of excessively working out.
This trip way so good in many ways but mostly for my mental health
This trip way so good in many ways but mostly for my mental health
After that I‘d say I was back to a normal eating habit and body image.
Looking back at those pictures it’s just shocking that I really thought I was fat even though I was nothing but bones.
Looking back at those pictures it’s just shocking that I really thought I was fat even though I was nothing but bones.
One thing that would’ve been impossible before Norway was flying to the US for a whole month.
The first thing I’ve always associated with the US was unhealthy food.
I struggled a lot at first but then I told myself that it’s ok, I won’t look bad with 1-2 more Kilogramms
The first thing I’ve always associated with the US was unhealthy food.
I struggled a lot at first but then I told myself that it’s ok, I won’t look bad with 1-2 more Kilogramms
yes I gained quite a bit...I knew to feel comfortable I had to tone up a little and maybe lose 3-5kg.. but this time in a healthy way.
I started cheering again though my parents were against it at first (main reason for my ED) I wanted to prove them that I’m stronger than my ED
I started cheering again though my parents were against it at first (main reason for my ED) I wanted to prove them that I’m stronger than my ED
But I wanted to prove them that I’m stronger than my ED!
Of course it wasn’t easy and straightforward all the time, but I knew it was worth it
Of course it wasn’t easy and straightforward all the time, but I knew it was worth it
Of course it wasn’t easy and straightforward all the time, but I knew it was worth it
I started this journey to complete happiness..
2 years later it’s safe to say I achieved it!
Sure there are still some „bad“ days but Mostly I’m happy with myself and most of all super proud
I started this journey to complete happiness..
2 years later it’s safe to say I achieved it!
Sure there are still some „bad“ days but Mostly I’m happy with myself and most of all super proud
I managed to overcome my eating disorder without any professional help but instead with the help of my family. This whole journey has brought me so much closer to my parents!
Now at the age of 24 I’m finally leading the life I should have had as a teenager.
Yes I’m going out a lot, yes I’m eating quite a bit of chocolate, yes I skip workouts.
But most of all: I have friends, I‘m emotional again, I have feelings.
I‘m enjoying life and I’m so thankful
Yes I’m going out a lot, yes I’m eating quite a bit of chocolate, yes I skip workouts.
But most of all: I have friends, I‘m emotional again, I have feelings.
I‘m enjoying life and I’m so thankful
To everyone struggling:IT IS WORTH IT! You’re stronger than the voice in your head.
I‘m proud of you and so is everyone else, believe me
Keep fighting! You won’t regret it
Don’t let this fucking ED and voice in your head destroy you!
I love you and I know you can do it
I‘m proud of you and so is everyone else, believe me
Keep fighting! You won’t regret it
Don’t let this fucking ED and voice in your head destroy you!
I love you and I know you can do it
