So, I& #39;m still mad but I& #39;m not shaking anymore as badly I guess.

And I rlly don& #39;t know how to say this. I know I& #39;m not doing too welll right now mentally. There& #39;s this person that gives me bad vibes to the point that I just want to leave this fandom. At this point I don& #39;t know-

who or what to believe. Or if I can trust my own intuition or if I just need fucking therapy. Which I need anyway.

I& #39;m just... irrationally mad. My life is a mess and I& #39;m already a complete fucking failure and fandom is supposed to be my escape. But lately-

it& #39;s been a source of more anxiety and more anger. Both twitter and this fandom. And it& #39;s not fandom& #39;s fault, it& #39;s a few people who stick out and are hard to ignore even when I& #39;ve blocked them.

I& #39;m still gonna finish the projects I& #39;m in and read fics. And maybe-

I& #39;ll still post smth but I& #39;m taking a break.

I know I& #39;m not an angel. I know I don& #39;t know everything and I can& #39;t deal with any of this right now. The world is a mess, I live in fear that my parents and sister are gonna die and I weep with every news I read. Aside from that it-

feels like my thoughts are tryna kill me too. Im just tired.

I don& #39;t know when I& #39;ll be back if at all and i don& #39;t know if I& #39;ll regret this thread in the morning I just know that fandom is supposed to be fun. And this isn& #39;t. And I don& #39;t know how to fix it.

I& #39;m still on discord if anyone really needs me or still wants to talk to me.