1/ Twitter induced anxiety, a small thread.

I used to be very much in love with the idea of Science Twitter, with learning from people who get to do things in fields I never even knew existed when I was growing up.

Now, I must admit Science Twitter gives me serious anxiety.

2/ I was out resting due to recovery, but that didn't stop my notifications from being a nightmare.

Over the last few years I've managed to bypass a lot of the conflicts in here, given that I do not like fights. I've been fighting my entire life and not because I wanted to...

3/ I'm sure a lot of you have been seeing posts about a group boosting women and so on, I was added to the groups though I barely made appearance since group chats are overhelmeming to me.

So I don't necessarily know what the hell happened in here that triggered all the fighting

4/ I will say though that I believe @itatiVCS regardless of what anyone says, and I do feel bad for whatever happened in here that directly affected her like this.

I had decided to leave the group since I started to feel kinda caught in the middle of things I didn't understand.

5/ But to my actual point on this thread, in all honesty to everyone (especially now during my recovery) Science Twitter is a bit of a nightmare for me.

I don't know who to trust, whether is healthier for me to remove literally everyone on my follows, I just don't know.

6/ The BethAnn situation had already triggered my anger to levels that literally made me bleed too much during recovery, and I've noticed that most of the bad things I've endured directly came from Science Twitter-the very place I admired so much at some point.

7/ I'm no saint, but damn when I say something it can be written on stone cause I don't fake a thing in this life.

Here, I feel like my peace of mind isn't safe. Most days I'm not even sure if this exposure is beneficial or hurtful to my future and the things I've worked for.

8/ Idk what the hell to do. This may sound corny to people who never had to fight for anything, but when I came in here all I wanted was to talk to some damn scientists and learn how to make my dreams come true.

And so far I've gotten scammed out of money, abused, and stressed.

9/ And before anyone even tries, no I'm not "centering myself" I'm standing up for my peace of mind. I feel like the only way I can be fair is if I just unfollow everyone, so no side takes me as some supporter of whatever.

I don’t want to call your issues petty, but...

10/ When some of the problems you've had to deal with include eating garbage, getting beat up by a husband that was forced on you too young, fighting to get access to some damn edu, being a single mom, having to bury a daughter, and so on...

This kind of thing is just stress...

11/11 I respect a lot of you and what you do in your fields, but I love myself way more.

I'm nobody's keeper. So Idk I needed to let that out.

Also if you feel like you need to unfollow me, I encourage it. I don't do this for the clout. I'd be in love with science and wanting a better environment for me and others, even if I had zero people in here.

I won't take it personally.

I'm incredibly thankful that no one jumped in here with takes about anxiety over social media issues, as "weakness" or other miscellaneous poppycock.

Because I have to tell you, I don't have a single weak cell on me.

So if you're feeling anxious, you're not weak. You're human.