Thread by @_Astro_Nerd_, 1/ Twitter induced anxiety, a small thread.I used to be very much [...]

1/ Twitter induced anxiety, a small thread.

I used to be very much in love with the idea of Science Twitter, with learning from people who get to do things in fields I never even knew existed when I was growing up.

Now, I must admit Science Twitter gives me serious anxiety.

2/ I was out resting due to recovery, but that didn& #39;t stop my notifications from being a nightmare.

Over the last few years I& #39;ve managed to bypass a lot of the conflicts in here, given that I do not like fights. I& #39;ve been fighting my entire life and not because I wanted to...

3/ I& #39;m sure a lot of you have been seeing posts about a group boosting women and so on, I was added to the groups though I barely made appearance since group chats are overhelmeming to me.

So I don& #39;t necessarily know what the hell happened in here that triggered all the fighting

4/ I will say though that I believe @itatiVCS regardless of what anyone says, and I do feel bad for whatever happened in here that directly affected her like this.

I had decided to leave the group since I started to feel kinda caught in the middle of things I didn& #39;t understand.

5/ But to my actual point on this thread, in all honesty to everyone (especially now during my recovery) Science Twitter is a bit of a nightmare for me.

I don& #39;t know who to trust, whether is healthier for me to remove literally everyone on my follows, I just don& #39;t know.

6/ The BethAnn situation had already triggered my anger to levels that literally made me bleed too much during recovery, and I& #39;ve noticed that most of the bad things I& #39;ve endured directly came from Science Twitter-the very place I admired so much at some point.

7/ I& #39;m no saint, but damn when I say something it can be written on stone cause I don& #39;t fake a thing in this life.

Here, I feel like my peace of mind isn& #39;t safe. Most days I& #39;m not even sure if this exposure is beneficial or hurtful to my future and the things I& #39;ve worked for.

8/ Idk what the hell to do. This may sound corny to people who never had to fight for anything, but when I came in here all I wanted was to talk to some damn scientists and learn how to make my dreams come true.

And so far I& #39;ve gotten scammed out of money, abused, and stressed.

9/ And before anyone even tries, no I& #39;m not "centering myself" I& #39;m standing up for my peace of mind. I feel like the only way I can be fair is if I just unfollow everyone, so no side takes me as some supporter of whatever.

I don’t want to call your issues petty, but...

10/ When some of the problems you& #39;ve had to deal with include eating garbage, getting beat up by a husband that was forced on you too young, fighting to get access to some damn edu, being a single mom, having to bury a daughter, and so on...

This kind of thing is just stress...

11/11 I respect a lot of you and what you do in your fields, but I love myself way more.

I& #39;m nobody& #39;s keeper. So Idk I needed to let that out.

Also if you feel like you need to unfollow me, I encourage it. I don& #39;t do this for the clout. I& #39;d be in love with science and wanting a better environment for me and others, even if I had zero people in here.

I won& #39;t take it personally.

I& #39;m incredibly thankful that no one jumped in here with takes about anxiety over social media issues, as "weakness" or other miscellaneous poppycock.

Because I have to tell you, I don& #39;t have a single weak cell on me.

So if you& #39;re feeling anxious, you& #39;re not weak. You& #39;re human.

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