I always used to hate when people would tell teenage me that "some day you& #39;ll understand why your father did what he did".

I also used to secretly hope it was true.

Well, it hasn& #39;t turned out to be. I& #39;m 26, when am I finally going to stop hating my dad with a burning passion?

We& #39;ve been no contact for years. Our only recent contact was me trying to get money out of him in 2019. As with everything related to him, he said he& #39;d send some then never did. (Shocking.)

I am no closer to understanding him. Maybe I somehow hate him more? Ugh.