I& #39;ve been a lot more lurky than usual lately and I feel like I should talk about it. I& #39;m not okay. I haven& #39;t been okay for a while. I& #39;m hanging on to everything by a thread and every day that thread gets closer to breaking.
It& #39;s harder and harder to get myself out of bed each day. It& #39;s harder to go on. I hate myself more than I ever have. I feel like nothing but a burden on everyone I know and I feel guilty for venting to friends because I& #39;ve made them worry about a worthless person like me.
And I feel selfish for it. Other people are going through worse so why should I be upset about anything? Everything I try to do just seems to make me feel worse. I& #39;ve lost all motivation to work on anything. I just want to disappear. I don& #39;t want to exist anymore.
I& #39;ve been hiding from social media and discord and I don& #39;t know how much longer that& #39;s going to last. I& #39;m in a weird middle area where I& #39;m starting to miss interacting with people but I also just want to stay away from everything and keep hiding. I don& #39;t know what to do.