I’ve been hesitant to speak on this because of how well my high school administration treated me personally, but I feel the need to speak on this since racism is a topic that was and still is ignored at Smithson Valley HS: a thread

Before I continue, I want to start by saying that this thread is not to call out or hate on the school, my goal is to hopefully start a conversation that I have seen avoided all 8 years of me being in Comal ISD, but more specifically my four years at Smithson Valley HS.

I will also say that I didn’t have a terrible experience at the school, I took what I had along with the utmost respect and used it to my advantage to get on the good side, but that doesn’t disqualify me from speaking on the subject.

Anyhow, I joined many clubs, I was in theatre, I played basketball, every time I walked past admin I would put on my biggest smile and say hello, I had the most school spirit, and with all of that I gained respect from teachers, administrators, etc.

I became, what many people called me, the “token black kid.” I was on the front of the website along with some other students, I was on posters, admin began speaking to me first, and I got in return, the utmost respect from all the faculty on campus —and that’s the issue.

To be blunt, when a white student walks onto campus, they already have the utmost respect from faculty. They don’t have to work for it, they don’t have to prove themselves worthy, and they don’t have to change to meet expectations. Overall, they don’t have to WORK for respect.

On the other hand, most students of color had to be in clubs that benefited the school while also maintaining a high GPA and staying out of any trouble to have respect from everyone, including faculty.

The biggest difference between white students and students of color at SVHS is the fact that white students lost respect depending on their behavior, whereas students of color had to work for their respect in the first place.

I worked and worked and worked until I knew I had respect from everyone because that’s just who I am, but some of my peers, that were also of color, didn’t care as much as I did, which is reasonable because no one should have to work that hard to gain respect in the first place.

So as expected, a lot of my classmates didn’t get the same respect as I did. Ofcourse, we could deny it, but I got away with so much more than my BIPOC classmates due to me basically kissing up.

For example, in the year of 2019-2020, Comal ISD implemented the ID policy, stating that every student must wear a school ID on a lanyard everywhere on campus.

However, on the same day, in the same hour, with the same admin, 2 of my friends were automatically disciplined for not wearing their ID’s, but when I passed the same administrator, they asked where my ID was, I told them I left it in my car, and they allowed me to go get it.

This seems very minimal but this was how it always was. I was constantly loved, prioritized, respected, and even volunteered to do things to represent the school, but to keep it specific, most of my Black classmates were never included or asked.

Now, even though I was the “token black kid,” I want to talk about the many things that white students got away with that black students (including me) would be disciplined for.

First, the infamous parking lot also known as “Africa” (due to the distance away from the building). Mostly occupied by juniors and some seniors, the parking lot became a hangout spot in the mornings for most of the boys with their big trucks and loud music, which is fine.

But can we discuss the issue of double parking, “burnouts”, constant honking, and even RACING? If there was no supervision out there I would understand, but I have personally seen the campus sheriffs sit outside the parking lot watching students race, double park, —

and cause chaos, but they chose to ignore it. I even saw an officer playing cornhole behind a double parked truck playing Lil Uzi Vert at max volume, but I had a friend that was told to turn their music down because it was “provocative” by the same officer.

Or the fact that white students can continuously play “the penis game” where they see who yells “penis” the loudest and they get a slap on the wrist,but the one time a black student joins the game with a group of white students,they get ISS.(not saying it’s right, you get it)

Now, the disrespect that goes on in the classroom from white students such as yelling, disrespecting teachers, disrespecting subs, etc. is always just another slap on the wrist. But when a student of color does so much as talk to a friend or eats, that’s where they draw the line.

Now on the other hand, let’s talk about the continuous ignorance of BLATANT racism at SV and how administration seems to not see it as an issue.

Starting before I even entered high school, I heard about all the racism at the school through my sister. I remember her coming home frustrated about her and her friends getting called racial slurs, and when they reported it, there were never consequences.

I remember my freshman year, a video surfaced of a girl saying something on the lines of “if they can call us crackers, then we can call them n*ggers,” and Black students put it in the hands of admin, but nothing was ever done and admin swept it under the rug.

Therefore, out of anger and frustration, a Black student set a time and a place to fight the racist student, and that’s when admin got involved, threatened to punish the Black student, victimized the racist student, and STILL ignored the reason behind their anger.

Next is a situation where a white student continuously said the n-word and was reported to the office. However,admin returned with the student saying that they didn’t mean it in “an offensive way,” even though cussing in general is supposedly 3 days of ISS i believe.

Next, a student posted a photo in a black mask with the caption “i’m a n*gger,” and when we sent it to admin and also this person’s coach, me, along with other athletes and students were told to “leave it alone.” then ofcourse, it was only a slap on the wrist.

Now, let’s discuss the doctored photo that went viral of players on the jv football team posing with the caption “f**k them n*ggers” targeted toward Judson HS.

Yes, it was proven to be fake, but can we discuss the media outspread and how every school, every media outlet, and even majority of the students at SV believed it to be true? What does this say about SVHS?

I bring this up because there’s this stigma that SVHS is a racist school. Point. Blank. Period. And from within the school there have been tons of complaints on the topic of racism, but it is literally never handled. When will SV become a zero-tolerance for racism school?

It was to a point where I hated the question “what school do you go to” because I knew the reaction I would get, due to me being a Black student going to a school known for being racist.

Furthermore, students of color are more than just athletes that you favor during games because we are winning for you. We are more than just faces you slap on the website to represent “diversity.”

We’re valuable when we don’t have high gpa’s, we’re valuable when we don’t have the accent that you want us to have, we’re valuable when our hair doesn’t look the way you want it to, we’re valuable when we aren’t scoring touchdowns, baskets, or breaking records on the track.

We’re valuable when we’re not apart of every club. And we’re valuable when we’re not doing everything in our power to be accepted by you.

Again, this is not out of hate or spite toward the school, I just no longer want the conversation to be avoided any longer for the future and current students of color at SV and in Comal ISD.

This racist reputation will not be fixed if the school/district continues to ignore the conversation that has been avoided since the beginning. If SVHS continues to tolerate racism, they will never lose that reputation. And if they truly care, they’ll have the conversation.

I write this on behalf of all of my classmates of color that were mistreated on the campus. I write this on behalf of all the students who feared to speak about it (including me). And I write this on behalf of all of the future and current students of color at the school.

Just because I was protected by being tokenized and known throughout the school does not mean I cannot speak on the racist reputation of the school and on behalf of the students who were affected.

I wish I had the bravery to speak up more before I graduated,but I didn’t. There’s no other excuse.But now I’m speaking because I truly feel ashamed that I allowed myself to actively speak on racism but ignore the issue in my school because I, personally, was on the “good side.”

I will forever be thankful for SVHS because that’s where I found what I loved and enjoyed every second of it, but it hurts to say that many other students of color can’t say the same, and I ignored it.