i can’t shake this feeling that some people around me are starting to see my staying in from the pandemic as “excessive” and it’s starting to feel really isolating. (quick sidenote: i’m high risk. i have a crappy immune system that i’m currently trying to work on strengthening)

i do have my boyfriend here with me and he has been more than amazing during all of this. but it’s like... i have to keep reminding people that i regularly talk to that i can’t do certain things and i dunno i feel like it’s doing something to me. i don’t know exactly what.

i’m not blaming a single person for how i feel, that’s not the point of this thread. like i’m not mad at anyone, i’m not sad. it’s just bizarre to me whenever someone close to me asks me why i can’t do something and it’s like uh HELLO ??? HAVE YOU BEEN LISTENING ???

also this is my third week off of taking adderall for over a year and my mind is WACKED so sorry if this is coming off whiny, i literally do not know how to express my feelings in an articulate fashion so word vomit on twitter it is!

also i’m well aware that every single human is going through it right now whether we see it or not, but when you are getting the feeling that someone you love is genuinely not listening it kinda just breaks my heart like dude... do i have to die to get my point across? wtf