My dental pain is off the charts excruciating again.

But I& #39;m not supposed to talk about that because it& #39;s my fault because I& #39;m poor (work harder!) or fat (because fat people only eat sugar, right?) or disabled (lol so lazy amirite???1)

#spoonie
I remember as I child with then undiagnosed OCD I was afraid to brush my teeth because I had a phobia of choking. (I still do). I thought I& #39;d choke on my toothbrush. I had rituals around toothbrushing. I& #39;d avoid doing it unless my dad yelled at me to. I ate toothpaste instead.
When I was hospitalized for severe OCD in 2018, an occupational therapist retaught me how to brush my teeth.

I used to be ashamed of this but I know I& #39;m not the only 20-something who was scared of a toothbrush and used to only floss and mouth wash because of that.
TW EMETOPHOBIA

Around the same time I was hospitalized for OCD, my gastroparesis flared.

I was having severe GERD every day and vomiting frequently, sometimes multiple times per day.
I already had sensitive teeth and weak enamel, and had previously chipped a tooth, but now...

I started losing bits of teeth. My molars were just crumbling in my mouth.

And the pain was unbearable.

I have widespread chronic pain but dental pain is unlike anything else.
Have I mentioned I have a severe dental phobia?

And I& #39;m on disability?

And with my neuroimmune disease (ME/CFS), mental illnesses, and long medical history, most dentists won& #39;t touch me.

So I have to go to the hospital and be sedated for any procedure.
I finally got an appointment to fix the most pressing issues, remove a couple painful halfway crumbled molars and fix a bunch of cavities with a very experienced and empathetic dentist.

I was thrilled!

It was at the end of May 2020.
Right before Toronto shut down because of Covid.

In these few months, I& #39;ve been diligently taking care of my teeth whenever my severe fatigue allows.

But my teeth have gotten much worse. So much worse that it scares me.
I often can& #39;t eat or sleep because of the pain.

I think my teeth are worse than my grandmother& #39;s. But then, she doesn& #39;t have the illnesses I do. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙄" title="Gesicht mit rollenden Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit rollenden Augen">
Anyway, if you& #39;ve read any or all of this thread (floss? ha!) about teeth:

1: Thank you for being here! I love you.

2: Do you have any tips for taking care of your teeth/ feel fresh from bed? My tip is keep your floss and sugar free mints in your bedside table https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💪" title="Angespannter Bizeps" aria-label="Emoji: Angespannter Bizeps">
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