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I don& #39;t want to make this thread, but I don& #39;t feel as though I have much else to do. I& #39;m going to preface with TW for mental health , family death , and just a general not good place. I& #39;ll put more info in the thread, but because of these I am going to be (1/?)
I don& #39;t want to make this thread, but I don& #39;t feel as though I have much else to do. I& #39;m going to preface with TW for mental health , family death , and just a general not good place. I& #39;ll put more info in the thread, but because of these I am going to be (1/?)
asking for support in what way I can. Before the triggering content, I will link my ko-fi and paypal below. I will say I& #39;m not at any extreme risk so if there are people you know who could use it more, it& #39;s alright. (2/?)
https://ko-fi.com/rhovanellion
https://ko-fi.com/rhovanell... href=" http://Paypal.me/reyslagoon ">https://Paypal.me/reyslagoo...
https://ko-fi.com/rhovanellion
I am just grateful for whatever may come my way.
TW applies from here on out (3/?)
TW applies from here on out (3/?)
In short, I am really, really not doing well. Living in these times as a ND person stacked with mental illness has not at all been easy, and life itself just can& #39;t seem to stop throwing things at me. I& #39;ve very little support in ways of professional or medical help, nor can I(4/?)
afford such things. Every single day this month has brought something new, including a semester half online I am now trapped in because I& #39;ll lose my financial aid if I don& #39;t, sudden changes to move in dates for campus that I depended on for housing, someone who partook in (5/?)
emotional abuse toward me coming into my sphere again, My mother getting diagnosed w/ Leukemia and going through chemo the day after I finally cut ties with my horribly racist and bigoted father, and just yesterday my grandmother testing positive for COVID. She was already (6/?)
In poor shape before, and... Well. I& #39;m sure we all know where this will go. I am not hopeful.
I am in the worst shape mentally and physically I have ever been in. This year is by far the most damaging year I have lived. My birthday is on the tenth, and usually every year (7/?)
I am in the worst shape mentally and physically I have ever been in. This year is by far the most damaging year I have lived. My birthday is on the tenth, and usually every year (7/?)
I& #39;ve lived after 18 I& #39;ve celebrated, because I did not expect to live this long. But this year feels like nothing to celebrate.
My only income is and has always been my art. And I am forever grateful to those people who have commissioned me or have taken part in my (8/?)
My only income is and has always been my art. And I am forever grateful to those people who have commissioned me or have taken part in my (8/?)
donation streams/offers. I have just two waiting to be completed right now, but I am... Struggling, quite a bit. Art is the only thing I am capable of doing for money, but it& #39;s also something that requires me to have a good state of mind to put out quality content. Right now(9/?)
I have been fighting to even get out a few tiny pieces here and there, as I& #39;m sure you& #39;ve noticed. Given just... Everything that is happening- in the world, in my own life, I cannot rely upon myself to give something quality in a timely manner. I don& #39;t feel right taking (10/?)
on commissions and having them span multiple months because I just cannot bring my hands to stop shaking or my mind from this very burdened state. I& #39;ve had many days now where I am physically incapable of doing art even if I wanted to because of hand tremors from stress. (11/?)
I really and truly need to close my commissions, but as it is my only income, I don& #39;t have anything to go on. I have no savings, I very much live piece to piece. I& #39;m lucky to have someone to stay with where our agreement is doable to me and I won& #39;t be kicked out, but I (12/?)
also cannot afford to rack up debt on my side of the bargain.
I don& #39;t know how to go about this. I don& #39;t know what to do. I& #39;ve not been able to get any of the checks or even unemployment because I& #39;m a full time student, claimed as a dependent though I do not get monetary (13/?)
I don& #39;t know how to go about this. I don& #39;t know what to do. I& #39;ve not been able to get any of the checks or even unemployment because I& #39;m a full time student, claimed as a dependent though I do not get monetary (13/?)
support. I haven& #39;t been able to get any aid, and my financial aid for college only covers things when I live on campus, which got pushed back by two and a half months.
I cannot afford to close commissions for my livlihood, but i cannot afford to keep taking on (14/?)
I cannot afford to close commissions for my livlihood, but i cannot afford to keep taking on (14/?)
