Putting my face to this account with a kind reminder that I looked like this four days ago. I stood up for probably two hours and danced and drank (for the first time in four months) with friends.
(Covid safe don't worry not what this is about).

I don't look sick right? I even went to the party without my cane because I blissfully didn't think I needed it. I didn't then (my back hurt though).
Flash to last night into today. I can barely get out of bed, I can barely eat or breathe or sleep.
But hey, I don't look sick.

I have no idea why this is happening to me. Doctors want to dismiss me feeling like my lungs don't work and are in pain is "just anxiety".

I just cracked 20 and I've been looking into why I have (just my lung issues) for two years. I've been trying to look into why I have issues with my heart for 5 and have had daily chronic pain for 7.

(Weight included)
I lost 15-20kg in barely two months, could not stand for any reasonable time, could barely shower because of incredible amounts of pain and fatigue and could barely eat one full meal a day before doctors took me seriously.
Let that sink in.

I don't sugar coat shit here. The medical world needs to stop assuming when women present with symptoms it's just anxiety, or stress ect. They need to stop waiting until it becomes unbearable before taking it seriously.

Overall point of this thread:
Don't judge a book by it's cover because sometimes the book has a lot of pain inside that even the synopsis doesn't tell you about.

By the way doctors still don't take me seriously, even with the above considered. My mum (again hi I'm 20 and doctors do their job unless my mum's there) managed to turn "oh we have no more tests for you" after one x-ray to "hey here's some referrals" so we'll see how that goes.