SO WHAT DO YOU RECCOMMEND TO ENCOURAGE AFFECTION

do you see the hem of his pants? like he has trudged through six inches of mud!

eddie staring wistfully after Richie, running to check on Bill, muddy pants hem and all

I lied I am not having a normal time of it at all

we could always laugh at him?
oh no mr kaspbrak is not to be teased
are you too proud mr kaspbrak? And would you consider pride a fault or a virtue?
...
vs the pitch perfect Richie line? “Oh, dear, I cannot tease you about that. What a shame, for I dearly love to laugh.”

YOURE WELCOME ANYTIME YOU FEEL THE LEAST BIT POORLY. B I K E

kelley said it first but she is right: let’s have connor bowers as mr collins. he can be a sad little awkward man.

there’s no homophobia in my p&p au they are just gay

bev also being raised alongside richie. bev finding her love somewhere else, not at balls but but at the merchants, she meets kay, let’s do a role reversal! KAY is a seamstress, has done fittings for the bennets for years. bev spent many hours there as they grew older. they

dance around each other at first. kay teaches Bev how to fix her own clothes, coming in behind her, wrapping her arms around bev as they weave a needle through fabric together. bev getting dressed up for the ball and walking all the way back into town

MAY I HAVE THE NEXT DANCE MR TOZIER.

the thought of eddie being someone who has more difficulty making friends, as someone who finds it difficult to be charming, as someone who worries about being abrasive and scaring someone away. about MIKE AS HIS BEST FRIEND WHO SEES HIM FOR WHO HE IS AND LOVES HIM DEARLY

mike being deeply, quickly in love, the way he feels intensely about people. bill as jane who feels deeply too but is more internal, having them only need a small nudge in the other’s direction to get them on the right page

richie as a ROMANTIC he is holding out for REAL LOVE a PASSIONATE LOVE or NOTHING AT ALL. he knows he has his family and his friends and he would be content to be alone before he accepted a lukewarm love

BILL THINKING MIKE DOESNT LOVE HIM. RICHIE TRYING TO INSIST MIKE DOES, OR COURSE HE DOES. BILL THINKINGN THE BEST OF PEOPLE AND NOT WANTING TO DWELL ON ILL MOTIVES. HOW BILL TAKES THIS “REJECTION” WITH KINDNESS AND GRACE BUT THE PAIN.

Richie and Eddie reuniting after mr collins is married. this dinner together. how impressed Eddie would be watching richie keep up with lady catherine. how Richie gives his opinion without reserve. AHHHHH

Eddie: I know I cannot alarm you even if I should wish.

THE FAILED PROPOSAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EDDIE BEING PETRIFIED TO DO THIS, STEPPING FAR OUT IF HIS COMFORT ZONE. HOW IT HURTS.

the feeling :) when richie learns :) that eddie was involved in breaking up mike/bill

BUT ALSO!!!! eddie getting that first proposal wrong, focussing too much on the emotions as something harmful to him, how richie already has concerns re rejection and the way eddie asks gets at his insecurities. HOW IT WAS BAD FOR BOTH OF THEM.

having the slight be against impropriety by richie’s family vs how Richie is protective of them. THE EXPLOSIVE REFUSAL AND FIGHT WHERE THEY HURT EACH OTHER WITH THEIR WORDS because look two people who know the other can hurt each other best can’t they

richie being so thoroughly concerned for bill’s happiness. the letter from eddie to richie. EDDIE WRITING IT DOWN BECAUSE HE HAS TROUBLE SAYING HOW HE FEELS. HOW HE WANTS TO BE CLEAR (he said this too, when they danced: that he wanted to be clearer with richie)

Believe me. Men are either eaten up with arrogance or stupidity. If they are amiable, they are so easily led they have no minds of their own whatsoever.
RICHIE WANTING SOMEONE WITCH A MIND OF THEIR OWN. NOT CONCERNED WITH HOW OTHERS SEE THEM. EDDIE WANTING TO BE THAT BRAVR PERSON

richie yearning tho. seeing the house at derbyshire, where he could live, where the two of them would be together. he sees the house and he laughs because it’s hilarious. but yearns to see glimpses of a future he refused, a future with eddie who surprises him & challenges him

Do you not think him handsome, sir?
Richie: Yes. Yes I dare say he is. Is he home?

I’m fine. Normal

me livetweeting p&p but as reddie = this didn’t age well https://twitter.com/beverlymarshian/status/1290517397548355584

the stilted conversation after the first proposal. with emotion thick in both their throats. not sure what to do around each other like this, being truly nervous for the first time. But also the y e a r n i n g. Richie apologizing for intruding and Eddie insisting he DIDNT AHHH

alt: leave connor bowers as wickham. it was not eddie’s sister whose heart was broken too young but his own. connor tells richie that eddie refuses him because of rank.

eddie swooping in to save Richie’s sister. because he knows what it’s like. because he knows how much richie cares. how he does it without really expecting anything. because HES GOOD and he wants to be BRAVE.