Late night thought dump. (Warning: I get pissy). I can’t help but look at my numbers on a lot lof things and compare to others. I sometimes get to see my likes go past 10 or 15, and retweets at all usually are 1-3. Replies are non-existent unless..

required, like my raffle post. Meanwhile:
“im dying fjgldslskljsls ”
“twitter is funny because...”
“this is only day you can rt this”
in the fucking tens of thousands, sometimes hundreds thousands.

“but you just make Isaac content which isn’t really popular and its specific to just one mod”
Theres a point in that but I mean...I’m gonna be straight up and say coding should be way more appreciated than art.

EVERY art account I see is usually higher in followers. I mean its a “you draw thing, they see thing”. For coding its a “you need to understand every letter you type in the coding language you’re using and use your knowledge to create simple and efficient systems”

and what does days, weeks, or sometimes even months of that fucking time do? A couple follows, maybe 15-20 retweets if I’m being generous, and and 10-25+likes.

I’ve been doing content on EEVEE which should be the most easily recognizeable thing to like even if you know nothing on Isaac. Been doing this for a year and I’ve barely graced 1k followers. The hell do I need to do?

I’ve been tweeting more than normal to try and get interaction. I’ve been posting my stuff in most discord servers I’m in. Do I need to reply to others more? Get my commissions done that no one can really see unless they own Isaac? Streams that 1 person will watch?

I know there’s the underappreciated artists, those below 1k despite doing good art all the time, “appreciate what you have”, etc. I’m always doubting myself at my work saying its not that good. This thread is the opposite: Ive worked hard and I feel like I should have more.

An entire year of making a character for Isaac. An entire year of self-improvement through code and sprites. An entire year of intuitive ideas for the mod. A discord server with positive energy and lovely people, 10k total people downloaded the mod.

and WHERE did that get me in the grand scheme of things? Practically nowhere. The only real life-development I’ve been able to make in that year was thanks to a UPS job so I get money weekly. That’s it.

Meanwhile I see other people just fucking DROWNING in fanart, comments, retweets and likes, and probably making lots of money off commissions.

Just...what do I do? Just do this shit for another year, complete the Eevee Mod, and get 2 followers from it? I enjoy coding. I enjoy the Eevee Mod. I appreciate all you lovely people for supporting me. I appreciate any single reply, follow, and retweet...but...

If its not gonna get me anywhere in my life, what do I do? I’ll complete the Eevee Mod and Edmund won’t take notice. My favorite Isaac YouTuber, Hutts, definitely wont notice. 10 people will clap their hands as I sit in my chair waiting for something to happen.

tl;dr, I complain about my online presence and compare it to others and desperately ask for answers on what to do with no response. It isn’t good to post stuff like this but I wanted to get it off my chest. If anyone sees this, I’m sorry for wasting your time.