ok this weekend has been A LOT but today esp (personally for me) has been a bit of a shitshow...got so much frustration and anger in me atm that I wish I had some boxing gloves and a punching back to get it out.

anyways gonna try to reread some favorite soft fics and destress

ok I just need to vent a bit here so please mute / ignore the rest of this thread for possible triggers ( death ) & ( racism )

(tw mentions of death & racism)

besides *gestures* everything going on here:

- an acquaintance / member of our community was found dead (a homicide) this morning in a neighborhood very close that seemed safe. we’re all very shaken.

- my workout trainer had another racist encounter in public with a white (former) cop and just hearing that conversation and what the white asshole said filled me with so much sadness and rage. this is the shit black people have to LIVE through EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

- lastly had a fight with my dad tonight which was minor but just was the cherry on top of this shitfest sundae (Sunday! lol). he’s definitely not the worst father but he can be such a fucking gaslighting jerk and after everything else I was just so DONE today.