Off lock. Too many people making up their own weird narratives about all this.

I made my post In the heat of the moment, in the middle of the night

Casey was reacting to that. Casey did not bully me, I blind sided her with my admission of past shitty behavior.

Before making her post, Casey reached out to me privately to let me know how I'd let her down, but also to make sure I was okay, because she wanted to make a statement on this since she had recommended and promoted me frequently.

It was the responsible thing to do.

I told her to go ahead. Because I do not want to be seen as a victim in all this.

In regards to my ideations of self harm. Made in passing in my post, as I was grappling with some heavy feelings, about a culture of harassment and toxic I was making an effort to leave.

This was a mistake. Not because of blow back by Casey's followers. I was prepared for that reaction, it was the one I was already having when I made my post in the first place.

As people from outside the whole issue have come in and tried to puppet my name to attack people.

This is when it got bad.

It is beyond ridiculous seeing people trying to use this situation to air out grudges against furries, sjws, and Antis. Like it's a bad thing to be anti-pedo??

But also, I am all of those things. I absolutely a Furry SJW, I was too slack on the last one

I have been failing, for a long time, to hold myself to an acceptable standard. Because it helped with trauma. Because I didn't produce or distribute it. Because I wasn't as bad as artists like F*gb*ank or Sh*dm*n

So many excuses. That are now being thrown back at me.

Having this stuff sincerely yelled back at me, has made it very clear how out in the woods I was.

I'm trying to word this thread as carefully and deliberately as I possibly can to be as clear as possible.

I have not broken to pressure. I am not looking to be forgiven for anything.

The people who called me out on this stuff have mostly left me alone. Either silently unfollowing, or making a comment in Casey's thread.

The reason for my careful deliberate wording here, for the need for this entire thread.

The people who feel the need to attack me.

Are entirely people trying to defend the position I have renounced.

One I did not renounce clearly, or strongly enough in my initial post.