the past 7months have been a real struggle. unemployment is no joke, & my spiritual, mental & emotonal state has taken a 180. everything just seems to be working against me. & i just feel so far away from God. praying has become routinely, it’s just another thing to do.

praying to my heavenly Father is difficult cause i don’t know what to say. i’m angry at God too, cause i thought His word says He will never leave me not forsake me. where i ask, i’ll receive...where i knock, doors will be opened & where i seek, i shall find. but nothing!

i feel rejected by God, forsaken by God & just like He doesn’t care. had He cared about me, i wouldn’t be in this situation. i thought God looks out for His one? am i not His own?https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz"> whenever i pray, it’s like the word just hit the ceiling & fall on my shoulders.

like God is too busy to listen & His ear is too far to hear my cry.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz"> all of this has made me tired, so exhausted. i’ve turned to worldly things to compensate & easen the pain but it still hurts so bad. Lord, why have You forsaken me? am i no longer Your child?

i just want to start over, afresh & rebuild my relationship with You. i know that i have to be patient & keep waiting on You cause Your time isn’t my time & Your thoughts aren’t my thoughts. but please, i need to just see some light in this tunnel...it’s very dark & i am scared.

i am not afraid to acknowledge that i am a sinner. i am able to repent & confess because i know You will forgive me Lord. Thank You for Jesus Christ who die on the Cross for my sins so that i never have to be sacrificed or nailed to a cross. come & live within my heart.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏼" title="Folded hands (mittelheller Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (mittelheller Hautton)">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="♥️" title="Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Herz">

i ask now Lord, give me the strength to continue praying...let me kneel before You & call upon Your Name, let me not get tired. strengthen my spirit & weaken my flesh, in Jesus Christ Name.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏼" title="Folded hands (mittelheller Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (mittelheller Hautton)">

Lord, i know i can put my hope, faith & trust in You. let me wait on You whilst You are working. i know that when the time is right, things shall come to pass. You are my Saviour, my rock, my fortress, my salvation & my secret keeper, now & forevermore.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="♾" title="Infinity" aria-label="Emoji: Infinity">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="♥️" title="Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Herz">

love, Kayla.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🌸" title="Kirschblüte" aria-label="Emoji: Kirschblüte">