I just made a 20 minute ranting video about thoughts and nonsense and vehemently and fervently talked to the camera for like an hour and even bothered to edit it down to a 20 minute video that won’t ever see the light of day. Is it because I’m going through a menopause at my

early 20s? Is it because I am at a consistently passionate and chaotic state of mind not because I’m sad nor angry nor depressed but it’s only because of the inexhaustible thoughts I have on a daily? Is it because I’m going through a significant coming of age stage in my life is

It because my state of psyche is just whirlwind of incessant whirlpool of words of nonsense that doesn’t benefit nor a detriment? Is it because despite being a Virgo sun, the rest of my planets are Aquarius and Aries? I have no conflict nor sadness happening in me honestly but

it’s been a chaotic nonsense for what reason? Nothing. I am in no need of consolation although you reading this MAY need it just because you have just wasted a tiny bit of your time getting nothing from this thread other than empty words of mayhem and disarray like what

t̐̐ͭ̚n̷̤̞̗̿̇͌̕x͕̤̟̮̗̼͚͈̗͔̣̅͌̈́̀̂̆ͧ͂̈́ͨ͂̑͡ͅ 4̶̵̫̦̬̤͚͇̥̜̯̦͓͢ ̸̹̳̳̫̖͙̳̰̲̖̘͎͡͡r͛̏̚҉̠͖̣e͝a̴̢̺̻̖di̴̺̳͎̩̩̼̜̣̻̹ͣ̊ͫ͂͋̃̂̆̍̀͠n̵͐ͨ̏̅ͯͧ̋͗͛̈́̍͏̳̙̗͉̬̖͎̤̟̫͕g͗̍̋́ ̽̿ͦ͒̂͐͟͏͔̖͚͈͎̬l̾̿̃̐̄ͤ̔̓̋̔o̕҉͉̣̝̤̱̼̗l̙͎̩̫̂̍͗̇ ps this is just me if u know me IRL lololl