I’m retweeting this now despite being featured in one of the replies because I believe in accountability and since two years ago, I have learned that I went in blindly defending a so called friend instead of listening to BIPOC. Which I am deepy ashamed and sorry for. https://twitter.com/bodhicha/status/1029180631434055680

I’ll be the first to admit, I acted horribly and the mentality came with being around KTF. She cried about the consequences to herself and not the people she had undoubtedly hurt with the portrayal of Finn in her story. Most of them were BIPOC. Yet I jumped to defend her.

It was a mistake. I should have listened and read their words carefully instead of trying to maintain a friendship with someone who never really cared but did care about their position in the fandom. I have learned since then and continue to do so.

I know black men have been portrayed as sexually deviants, as rapists and monsters who white women need to be saved from by white men. Which is untrue and done to instil fear and hatred and caused the deaths of countless, innocent black men.

I have not spoken to this person in well over a year. Not since I left a server where I was gaslighted by her and asongforjonsa for speaking up against a disgusting prompt about ‘an innappropriate erection in the holocaust museum.’

I was made to feel ashamed to bring it up publicly in the server and told to bring it up privately in the dms to the server mod, asongforjonsa so she could delete it without attention. KTF defended her and assured everyone it was a mistake. I felt stupid and betrayed.

Had I done wrong for making a fuss? I left and they never spoke to me again despite me messaging my reason. Behind the scenes, people thanked me for speaking up as they knew I had a louder voice than them and were scared of KTF’s and asongforjonsa’s reactions.

No one should feel scared for pointing out racism in this fandom. I continue to learn and I haven’t posted this to cause drama. I want to hold myself and others accountable. I am deeply sorry for my actions in this thread.

I will understand if you want to unfollow due to loyalties to this author. But this had to be said. Again, I am deeply sorry and I will continue to learn and listen to the BIPOC in this fandom.

Thank you