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Asking someone: What did you do today? What did you do yesterday? Oh, what did you clean? How much? But I did that, so how much did you actually do? What do you plan on doing tomorrow again?
Isn’t a nice thing to do. It’s doubly not nice if the person is dealing with depression.
Isn’t a nice thing to do. It’s doubly not nice if the person is dealing with depression.
Rant Thread
Sorry, I find that working on my hobbies constitutes nothing because y’all have said time and time again that I should do “real work” (typically around the house) or get a “real job” instead of writing, sketching characters, working on publishing, etc.
Sorry, I know that if I said “I wrote my books and talked with my girlfriend all day” is met with “You should do more than that” by people who claim that they want me to persue my dreams.
Sorry, I need to recharge and am generally bad with socializing with people for long periods of time, haven’t been able to see my girlfriend in over 7 months now, and have been forced into close proximity with the same three people for 4 months straight.
Sorry, I couldnt tell you about my current new writing about queer theory and queer education because the other two people at the dinner table either a) ask too many questions about identity, b) don’t take seriously the dangers of being out, c) have told me I “need help” b/c of b
I just need to get this off my chest, sorry. I can’t go through one dinner without somehow getting told I’m too emotional, too anxious, too lazy, not doing enough, not taking things seriously, taking things too seriously, etc.
I don’t like talking about what I do during the day because I have no faith that people irl will actually understand the work that goes into doing the smallest of things. It’s difficult for me to do the dishes, let alone make breakfast, let alone write informative pieces.
I’m not like my siblings who are into tech and do all the neat mathematical stuff and coding stuff. I’m not like my siblings who are cishet and already have steady jobs in their fields.
So stop treating me like I’m gonna be doing the exact same cookie cutter path.
So stop treating me like I’m gonna be doing the exact same cookie cutter path.
I get that my family thinks I do nothing all day. And it f*cking sucks. They think that as soon as online school starts up I’ll be doing more, doing “better.” When I’ll be doing worse.
I can already feel the crippling desire to wrap myself in a blanket and not get up in the morning and I still have a few weeks until school starts up. That anxiety and pressure is already kicking in. I don’t need more from people prodding me into admitting I do nothing all day.
This all coming from the same people who wouldn’t take “college is ruining my mental health, I need to get out” seriously because it would “ruin my job opportunities, lose my scholarships” and more. It’s fun knowing that money is more important than the human being /s.
Ugh. I just wish I didn’t have to deal with all this. It feels like I’m beating my head against a wall every day and being forced to grin and bear through the pain.
