Day 1 of my Journey towards self-love:

I looked at myself in the mirror today. I had a lot of voices in my head but I tried to swat them away.

Day 2:

I smiled at myself today. I told myself everything is going to be okay. Almost got myself believing.

Day 3: I told my bestfriend that everything will be okay. At that moment, I did believe myself. Through all the adversity and struggles, it's nice to have someone to go through it all together.

Day 4:

I weighed myself today. It's really hard for me to do this. Right after, I just hate myself and totally give up on everything.

But instead of starving myself to death, I tried to eat healthier the whole day. No more junk.

Day 5:

My youngest dog came to me today and asked for pets. He never does that. He is usually a loner boi.

He rolled over and asked for a belly rub. It filled my heart with all things good.

Day 6:

I reconnected with an old friend today.

We talked about our high school days and how far we've come. I thought that I was incapable of progress but looking back, I have grown a lot. We all have grown a lot. I'm proud of all of you.

Day 8:

I haven't been eating these days. Knowing my weight has given a lot of anxiety.

I decided to just hide the weighing scale. I dont know which is good for me.

Closing this thread because I can't do it. Maybe in the future, I dont know.