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2 years ago, I had this mindset that when I see my pelvic bones, my ribs, my jawline and sunken cheeks, I am more attractive. I resorted to medications, crazy diets and even laxatives to maintain that standard not knowing that I was slowly killing myself. https://twitter.com/antoniaeIla/status/1289332538494693376
Took me some time to acknowledge that I was sick, i was too indenial, I was too influenced by what I see in the media without realizing that my body was built differently, that my metabolism was paced differently, my nutritional needs were different
But thankfully, I had the chance to reevaluate myself and things, I checked myself to medical help during internship, but man, the countless relapse especially during the first month, the feeling of painful contraction that overtaking laxatives cause became addicting
that I kept looking for the sensation because I knew after the pain, wearing clothes would be more comfortable.
Progress began to happen around the 2nd month, I had my first "unli wings" in cebu, but twas an exhausting contradiction in my head if I should take 4 pills after
Progress began to happen around the 2nd month, I had my first "unli wings" in cebu, but twas an exhausting contradiction in my head if I should take 4 pills after
But I didnt, denying the pill became more and more frequent and easier.
4 months in, eating became more enjoyable, relapse happened but very seldom.
Fast forward, I am now 1 yr and a half clean from the pill, I having folds here and there
4 months in, eating became more enjoyable, relapse happened but very seldom.
Fast forward, I am now 1 yr and a half clean from the pill, I having folds here and there
But I am starting to be comfortable in them.
Truly, eating disorder is a shit show of a battle, literally and figuratively, there are too many unintentional triggers that can make you step back again.
Idk how to end this thread dramatically, so I'll just stop talking here.
Truly, eating disorder is a shit show of a battle, literally and figuratively, there are too many unintentional triggers that can make you step back again.
Idk how to end this thread dramatically, so I'll just stop talking here.
