the only thing i regret in my life is letting all my ties die when i knew people were worried about me. I was really lonely in my head n before i knew it i was actually lonely irl because i let all those ties go even tho so many reached out.. god its so much and its crushing.
god dude my parents tell me to get a good job get a good job and make money and im working all the time now and even tho i have money to spare i dont feel good and i get sad and i just wish i knew more people and interacted more with people i feel so isolated sometimes
its just a lot sometimes and i really fkn hurts. and you know i wasnt raised to talk about how i feel and my mom is super successful and a hard worker and im just the failure that couldnt live up to that legacy and its just a lot and im reminded of it everyday
im just venting and im gonna be okay but ive been sitting at my desk for the past hour crying and theres just a lot i wished i did differently and a lot i wish i knew earlier.