tw/ self h*rm, s*icide

over the past year I& #39;ve tried to take my life 3 times and and hurt myself even more. I& #39;m always thinking I& #39;m worthless and that I& #39;m a mistake. I hate my life and I hate myself more. I& #39;ve been stuck in a void for the past year. I just dont have energy+

I& #39;ve been depressed, I& #39;ve been crying a lot. my insomnia is at full force. I& #39;ve been having more panic attacks than usual. my mom doesnt believe that I& #39;m mentally ill and one of my sisters hate me. my mom things that pills is gonna solve years of hurt and trauma but it doesnt +

my family thinks I just lazy when in reality I just have days where my depression just hits me like a train. I haven& #39;t slept in my own bed in about a month bc me and my sister who doesnt like me shares a room. Twitter is my outlet. I can be happy and myself bc at home I cant +

but I just want you guys to know I& #39;m ok. I dont have scars bc I dont c*t, instead I just prick and poke myself with a needle. it just leaves dots and they heal faster. I& #39;ve been holding this in for years bc I& #39;ve been to scared of what ppl with think of me. +

I hope you guys dont see me differently. those who are reading, you are a reason I& #39;m still here today and I love you so much. I might delete this bc I& #39;m so scared to see how ppl will react but I want someone to know... imma post it