I hate that people see me as a “cis gay” when that’s literally not my reality. I’m fucking trans y’all I been saying it for quite sometime, imagine waking up everyday being stuck in a body that makes your skin crawl... of course that’s gonna make you a LOT to handle.

“Ilonas such a bitch, she’s selfish, she’s annoying, she’s a cry baby”
Ya, I’m all of those things & the reality is you would be too if your “big break” was happening in the middle of you coming out as a trans person & had to watch a tv show featuring a dead version of urself.

I went on the show with all these weird pressures around how I should look or present myself & how I should identify to appeal to main stream media and I HATE that I put myself through that. The person you are all watching on tv isn’t me, it’s a curated version of myself.