I've gotten to the point in my spiritual life where all I have to do is be genuinely hurt by something and God will handle the rest.

I have mastered the art of celestial defenses by being good to people. Good and fair. In this day and age, tenure and sacrifice means nothing in the relationships you make. Trauma and entitlement is what keeps people together these days

And generally, people will judge you based on how well you navigate. The better you are at existing the less likely people will consider you worth the relationship. No one makes excuses for people who can manage. Those are the scape goats

Now I'm a sensitive dude so shit does get to me. But I also don't really bother defending myself either. I let relationships die on the basis of "it wouldn't come from me so it shoulda never came from you".

I will even fake like I'm over it because I know people change. If in 10 years you decide we handled each other wrong, you will at least be able to say "I'm glad we all squared away though". Some people need that closure and assurance. I ain't gonna deny anyone that

But then God will come in and be like "I will cause the most supreme unrest in their life to compensate for the balance and love you've given".

I don't even look at karma as a weapon. I see it as validation. Its self affirming. It's spirit saying "Joshua you loved how you were supposed to". I be needing that.

Seeing people that hurt me start to lose everything motivates me to love better, harder, and more frequently. God wouldn't move like that on my behalf, without my say so, for no reason. It isn't favoritism. It's judgement. I am grateful for that. I love God even more for that

Now let me get back to teaching y'all about Ancient African Empires so we can rewatch Black Is King and be even more educated. See I just must go on Zoom or something and watch it and just break down the esoteric context