so i have tried thinking about this the entire day, yknow losing all the art ive done for what, a couple of years? at first it was heart wrenching but at this point, im not that desperate to retrieve the said files. how i feel about this, a thread: https://twitter.com/gelicarrotcake/status/1289487862300172289

so heres how it happened: i was fearing when i updated to the latest ios, id lose all my art, so i tried backing everything up down to every layer. see what i didnt anticipate is it would take a huge chunk of space. it suddenly filled my storage, a measly 64 gb with 33 gb

and i could no longer export drawings for the sudden fill. i had wanted to get rid of the back ups because those, i assumed is why procreate jumped up storage space. couldnt find the backups and all were lumped together as the entirety of procreate file.

did not know how to free up space becase everything left on the ipad was important to me, and i did not have the luxury to spend money on increased storage without solving the 20 gb jump (from 14 gb) of procreate because i was afraid it would just increase if i bought bigger-

space. im not tech smart and looking for online solutions, i couldnt understand so i just thought, at that moment in time, i was already feeling very frustrated with my art. always feeling like it was not worth it and i did not enjoy the process anymore as how i used to

i remembered thinking, if they were all just swept away, would it free me from the burdens in my mind? so basically, i purged my own two years work because i was infuriated with art, burnt out, and i didnt know who else to ask for help.

before you all bully me for being stupid, yeah i know. im a fucking dunce LMAO i dont know how technology works and if the answer was simple, im sorry, i didnt know and didnt care enough to save 'my' files. but if youve reached this far into the thread, thank you for reading.

i never enjoyed the process of creating. it was more so i enjoyed how everything looked after creating. nobody was going to make art for me, so i always relied on myself to make that art. ever since 2020, its just been a lot of downhill for me. i thought if i had buried

them away, and denied my sadness, id be okay. if i faked well enough that i was okay, vibing, and enjoying drawing, it would go away. but no, i imploded on myself and just made mistakes one after another. most times i find difficulty to even do things at all.

hey you didnt come here for the drama and sadness, yknow, i get you. pff i didnt either. but thank you for reading and i appreciate you hearing me out. ill still be doing art--just had a little frustration about it. will open my art raffle and commissions tomorrow again.

in the mean time, you check out my website linked on my profile and look through my lost art because i was able put some up before all this happened!

so here: rest your brain, rest your body. dont beat yourself up about it too much. will be back again soon, for now ill be lurking on my personal: @karrotline