I& #39;ve been thinking a lot about how fellow ED friends of mine have been struggling during lockdown and how careless people are about weight gain jokes and shaming (I won& #39;t repeat all the ones I& #39;ve read and heard because they& #39;re thoughtless at best and cruel at worst).

when we talk to each other, it& #39;s like, oh hey, what triggered you today? friend& #39;s facebook post? parent telling you that you should stop wasting so much money on new clothes when your old ones ought to fit? ordered pizza and shame-spiralled for a week?

like, this is one reason why fat liberation is so important. people of all sizes have eating disorders and it& #39;s a direct result of this constant feedback loop of guilt and shame and self-harm induced by harmful messages about how bodies are meant to look.

I want to never think about my weight again. I want it to be as inconsequential as my height or my shoe size. I want to feel good in my clothes and good in my body without having to hurt myself first. I want to do things that make my body feel good without feeling guilty later.

I want to wake up one day and know that my body is just fine the way it is, even if it changes from time to time, because that& #39;s a natural thing that happens. I have no idea how long it& #39;ll take to get to that place, but I wish I could skip forward in time to that day right now.