Ok I know the beginning of taking stimulants is different than how it levels out so I'm not taking any of this for granted/lasting forever but like... woah. A bit after taking it I thought "I want to get out of bed" like I do every morning and I just... did it. Like right then...

I thought "I want breakfast and tea" and I made it... I thought "I need to water my poor plants" and I did, even the ones that I'd been avoiding cuz they were looking so bad. I thought "I would like thousands of dollars in underemployment benefits" and applied for it....

There is a little euphoria, which I'm okay with fading over time. I don't feel like, superhuman or hyperproductive or even excited. Just kinda calm and all those tiny daily things that shouldn't be a struggle just suddenly aren't rn. Hoping that bit lasts, at least to a degree.

This is why I'm glad my doctor went with an extended release because I'm so sick of the concentrated bursts of getting a ton of shit done among a sea of doing absolutely fucking nothing. I just wanna smooth that curve out and raise my baseline of functioning...

This thread is really for me to think aloud so like hide/mute away but if anyone's curious