1. As a survivor of sexual abuse in Evangelicalism. These are some things that hurt. When Christians are more vocal about @TGC clickbait bloody steak debate than they were about TGC’s definition of “sexual abuse” as merely “immoral behavior” it hurts.

2. When Christians only start listening to the concerns of survivors who have been harmed by leaders of @BaptistNetwork because the dirt furthers their agenda, it hurts.

3. When Christians equate advocacy and “standing with survivors” or “standing up for what’s right “ to sending a tweet but ignore the months and years of face to face conversations, phone calls, emails, long nights, hard days that actual change requires, it hurts.

4. When my family was accused by Tony Perkins office of being paid by @drmoore & @ERLC to tell our story just to boost the Caring Well’s PR just a week before @PastorMikeStone HID from @jdgreear that he was going to bring the investigation, it hurt.

5. When I joined 8000 SBC messengers last year as they all cried a publicized prayer of repentance in unity and committed to turning away from the sins that led us to this sex abuse crisis, but was told that same day by an @SBTS prof that my abuser was a godly man, it hurt.

6. When I had already disclosed to my KidsFit teacher @SBTS at 9 yrs old & was promised the abuse would never happen again but it did, & had to travel as adult to Birmingham to intro myself to every SBC leader I came across asking why my abuse never stopped with no help, it hurt.

7. When I disclosed the abuse to a well known group of pastors/elders who befriended my abuser and was driven to suicide in their church parking parking lot the day of disclosure bc they told me it was better for a man to take his own life than to ruin a mans ministry, it hurt.

8. When I found out that these same pastors not only failed to disclose the abuse I suffered, to police, but the abuse of others, and were known in the community for such behavior as well as spiritual abuse but were still allowed to speak at chapel of @BoyceCollege, it hurt.

9. When I realized that the majority of churches involved with my family or my abuser were more concerned about liability & PR than they were with us, our care, and the possibility of other survivors in their pews to the point of not being forthcoming about the truth, it hurt.

10. When I found out that most of these churches would respond to me publicly but not privately and fell under @KentuckyBaptist, Tennessee Baptist & @IndianaBaptists - I quickly tried to contact them- and was repeatedly ignored... it hurt.

11. When I asked my SBC church for advice, the responses were “if it really happened, he’ll get caught eventually” & “do you really want to go through the whole mess of going to the police?” I went to the police- just to find out the SBC hires convicted sex offenders, this hurts.

12. Not only did I go to the police and expose myself in that way, I went to the SBC- I also went to the @SBCExecComm who directed me to the Credentials Committee. Just to find out the following 1. @PastorMikeStone doesn’t care about survivors & goes out of his way to ignore them

13. People on the @SBCExecComm should have a code of standard and public communication. Men like @RodDMartin who have such public views against the Me Too movement cannot vote without bias when the credentials com. suggests a church be disfellowshipped for matter of sex abuse

14. Lay people in the SBC get angry with leadership but don’t step up to political level and leadership does the same with lay people but refuses to listen or change. The SBC wants to be run like a business without the accountability that a business would require.

15. I’m tired of being vague and walking on eggshells. I want to tell my story. It’s my testimony. By golly. Soon. I’m going to tell it. Because it’s story of what God has redeemed despite the injustices of those who were supposed to protect me. Be ready. I am free.