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you know what? Idc any more.
Monica Phillips from House of Cards Abbotsford severely emotionally abused me for 2 years & raped me at least once that I& #39;m aware of.
The abuse began soon after she became involved with Beru Bell, who instigated much of the early abuse.
Monica Phillips from House of Cards Abbotsford severely emotionally abused me for 2 years & raped me at least once that I& #39;m aware of.
The abuse began soon after she became involved with Beru Bell, who instigated much of the early abuse.
During the beginning of the abuse, both Monica and Beru constantly ignored any attempt I made to set any sort of boundaries, except to berate me for "being unfair" and "not caring about her happiness."
When I told Monica that I could not continue to be with her if it meant having Beru in my life due to their constant violation of my boundaries, she pretended to understand while continuing her relationship with Beru in secret until she was able to browbeat me into "consenting."
By the time Monica raped me, I was so worried about not being "unfair" to her that I felt obligated to wait until after she came to confront her.
& meanwhile Monica was telling all her new friends that I had no reason to dislike Beru or be uncomfortable with their relationship.
& meanwhile Monica was telling all her new friends that I had no reason to dislike Beru or be uncomfortable with their relationship.
Again: As a result of Monica Phillips& #39; treatment of me during our relationship, I was so concerned with her "happiness" that I felt obligated not to confront her for commiting rape by deception by tricking me into consuming Beru& #39;s vaginal fluids until I was sure she had orgasmed
Monica eventually admitted to me that she has been presenting herself to her new friend group (who, unlike her old friends, don& #39;t know me) as an innocent victim whose boyfriend ~just didn& #39;t care about her happiness~, slandering me to an unknown number of people in the process.
Monica (& Beru, from what I could tell) built this victim fantasy to tell her new friends who weren& #39;t there to witness the start of the relationship, which allowed her to create excuses for her abusive behavior & turned her new friends into abuse apologists in the process.
Basically, Monica Phillips is a very charismatic person who has decided over the last 2 years that ~pursuing her happiness~ is more important than not being an abuser or rapist, & who would slander someone behind their back while claiming to love them to their face.
& If Monica wants to accuse me of being ~mean~ and ~unfair~ for outing her as an abuser and rapist, fine.
Maybe I am ~mean and unfair,~ but she& #39;s a fucking rapist who consistently CHOSE to treat my boundaries as a game to be beaten for TWO YEARS.
Maybe I am ~mean and unfair,~ but she& #39;s a fucking rapist who consistently CHOSE to treat my boundaries as a game to be beaten for TWO YEARS.
When Monica said she wanted to ~distance herself from her past~, I didn& #39;t think she meant leaving behind her consent training, too
(& if any of Monica& #39;s ~new friends~ run across this, tell her she needs to make arrangements to get the rest of her shit from my place, because YET AGAIN she doesn& #39;t seem to understand what "not being in my life" actually fucking looks like)
Oops, I ran across another Lie from Beru Bell! This one claimed that I sent ~hordes of tumblr teens~ after Monica Phillips, while falsely claiming that I abused Monica.
Here& #39;s the evidence that Beru is lying about this claim: https://twitter.com/dysperdis/status/1288754896183861249?s=19">https://twitter.com/dysperdis...
Here& #39;s the evidence that Beru is lying about this claim: https://twitter.com/dysperdis/status/1288754896183861249?s=19">https://twitter.com/dysperdis...
The blog I *did* post this information to has less followers than Beru& #39;s twitter account, @/spectacularbear, does.
It& #39;s also been around since 2011, so a LOT of those followers are people who haven& #39;t even checked the site in months or years- *especially* since the infamous porn ban
Hell, here& #39;s every tweet I& #39;ve ever made mentioning either of their names: https://mobile.twitter.com/search?q=(Monica%20OR%20Beru)%20(from%3Adysperdis)&src=typed_query&f=live">https://mobile.twitter.com/search...
Oh, there was also this Facebook post I made after one of Monica& #39;s ~new friends~ accused me of lying (originally f-locked, then set to "only me")
TW for an EXPLICIT description of my experience of rape by deception at the hands of Monica Phillips:
TW for an EXPLICIT description of my experience of rape by deception at the hands of Monica Phillips:
BTW, if Monica ever claims that I called her disgusting, she& #39;s almost certainly referring to my reaction after I confronted her & she just responded like ~whoops~, at which point my exact words as I rushed to the bathroom were "that& #39;s the most disgusting thing I& #39;ve ever done"
I could show you the chats of me quietly checking in to see when someone would be home for 5 hours a couple days after my first suicide attempt, while I was knocked flat from some heavy-duty antibiotics, but they mention too many other ppl& #39;s names that aren& #39;t to blame here
Ah fuck it.
"Soon" was like 30+ minutes iirc, at which point I told her I was in emotional overload. As soon as I told her that, she started asking about my feelings about her relationship with Beru (something she& #39;d never outright asked me before, now that I think about it)
"Soon" was like 30+ minutes iirc, at which point I told her I was in emotional overload. As soon as I told her that, she started asking about my feelings about her relationship with Beru (something she& #39;d never outright asked me before, now that I think about it)
TW: Unsanitary
Between 11:30 and 12 pm on June 9th, I started pooping blood; after 3 hours, & some vomiting, it became clear that it was something serious.
I didn& #39;t even bring it up to Monica until 5 pm the next day, because I was afraid of interrupting her.
Between 11:30 and 12 pm on June 9th, I started pooping blood; after 3 hours, & some vomiting, it became clear that it was something serious.
I didn& #39;t even bring it up to Monica until 5 pm the next day, because I was afraid of interrupting her.
TW: suicide
When I realized I was bleeding pretty severely, I thought it was a potentially fatal rupture. I& #39;ve had a colostomy in the past & this was VERY literally the stuff of nightmares for me.
I ended up bleeding for over half a day, alone in a dark room, waiting to die.
When I realized I was bleeding pretty severely, I thought it was a potentially fatal rupture. I& #39;ve had a colostomy in the past & this was VERY literally the stuff of nightmares for me.
I ended up bleeding for over half a day, alone in a dark room, waiting to die.
Because dying in a *literal nightmare scenario* was preferable to "interrupting" Monica Phillips and Beru Bell. & When I got to the hospital & found out that it wasn& #39;t life-threatening? I felt guilty for asking for help.
TW: Unsanitary
I was painting the toilet red like this every 15-20 minutes, except for a few 1-2 hour stretches where I actually managed to fall asleep, from just before midnight until after I got to the hospital sometime after 6 pm.
And I thought asking for help was selfish.
I was painting the toilet red like this every 15-20 minutes, except for a few 1-2 hour stretches where I actually managed to fall asleep, from just before midnight until after I got to the hospital sometime after 6 pm.
And I thought asking for help was selfish.
After all the harm Monica has put me through, all I want is 2 things: 1) For her to arrange to get the rest of her shit out of my house & get the fuck out of my life, & 2) to not have to worry about the impact of her & her little circle of abusers & apologists slandering me
I thought I was done adding to this thread, but I guess I should link this too so it& #39;s all in one place: https://twitter.com/dysperdis/status/1294019162113634304">https://twitter.com/dysperdis...
