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Instead of drawing, writing is actually more like my thing. I like creating AUs for existing characters, writing settings and creating short stories based on it. I really want to share them here or privately but sadly they aren’t completed yet.
But unfortunately, writing English literally isn’t really my strength. I am only good at communicating and formal writing, still I would make some grammatical errors in them. I cannot present the same vibe from my Chinese version of the settings and stories in English.
It’s kinda frustrating tbh
Yes I can speak English and write essays, but I can’t write stories 
Okay, I like drawing too. But I had gone through a phase where people said my drawings are terrible. I just dare not to dream of doing drawing related stuff cuz there would be one or multiple voices in my head saying that I don’t deserve to say I want to practice drawing.
The time period of that “phase” is blurry but it was around 9-12...and a lot of bad things happened back then. Those bad things mainly happened because I draw
I still draw back then lmao but even tho I’ve gone pass the phase, when people spotted me drawing, no matter who they are, no matter where we are. My first instinct is to say”Oh, this is terrible/ugly.”
Because I believe by saying that, I can prevent others from saying my drawings are terrible at the first place. We can say it is a defender mechanism.
But what make me want to draw now and even chose animation as my major to study in the future? Well let’s just say couple of things happened, but the trigger is in a group project last year. We had a really good idea but none of us are artist.
I just thought if I practice digital drawing back then I can draw out our idea beautifully.
Plus, I’ve entered a brand new environment after I graduated from secondary school(middle school+ high school) and I met friendly people(don’t get me wrong, some people online are still problematic)
Instead of concealing them, I talk about my ideas to my online friends more confidently. Let’s just say I really enjoy this.
But drawing can sometimes be scary to me due to my lack of self-esteem and procrastination lmao
And I still need to complete my settings and stories for my AUs so...
OH WAIT THE GROUP PROJECT WAS ON 2018 , not last year
I really hope I can edit my tweets lol
Anyways, I still have a looooonnnng way to go in my creative path so...ummm look forward to it if you want? I won’t force you
Why did I suddenly write this? Maybe is because my urge of drawing FireWind is strong but I still need to have my own tasks to complete. This thread kinda serves as an explanation of my lack of drawing on this account tbh
I feel sorry for my followers...I didn’t draw much and I didn’t post my creations due to language barrier
Just realised I made a typo up there, is “defense mechanism” not “defender mechanism”
I just thought people follow me because I draw my profile pic well and they expect to see more art from me
I hope this thread is a good explanation for those who follow me for my drawings
Yes I will draw, but please be reminded that I draw really really slow.
I guess that’s all...? Thanks for reading :D
