There's a lot of ways that being fronstuck affects a system that never get talked about. We can't know what our level of amnesia is to determined osdd1b or did. We (usually) can't tell if a personality disorder is mine alone or the whole systems bc everything is filtered thru me

I can't tell what age I am while age sliding and have dehabilitating identity issues bc I can't leave front I am forced to perceive myself as the body and also to act as an adult at all times despite the constant emotional fatigue from doing so

Like being frontstuck in many ways isolates me from the rest of the system and strips me of my identity. Imagine you have to act a role that is more mature and responsible than you are and who has a completely separate identity for 4 years straight with no breaks. it's harmful

And systems with (long term) fronstuck hosts are treated as singlet lite by a lot of the community. So much of it is based on the ability to switch but we do not have that I am always here I have never left since forming and it hurts really badly to think about.

And like I know eventually I'll be able to switch out but that could be years from now and I'm tired of having so little autonomy and identity apart from the body. Really tired. But there's no real solid fix for it and we probably need therapy to learn to switch tbh

This turned into a vent ig but anyway tl:dr long term frontstuck host systems need better inclusion and support in a community where switches are centered and also being long term fronstuck affects a lot more than most people realize a lot of the time -Cinzia