SHAWOL OOMFS PLEASE READ

I will tweet something right now that can be seen in many way. If you decide to read it and feel uncomfortable or anything, you are free to block me or attack me or anything. It may sound harsh or useless but I deep down think that it has to be said.

It can makes you feel many kind of way and if you want to talk about it you can always dm me and anything, even if you hate me or anything I will always be there for you and by your side

So I will start but before it, I will warn you that it is tw dec 18 and tw grief and anything related to it, so as I said if you doesnt want to read, you are free to. If you are not ready to read anything about it, don’t force yourself because your health and well being is first

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For the one who are reading, thank you very much. I will first start with the situation and why I feel like it is my duty as a part of shinee’s fandom to talk about it.

I came to this realisation after talking with some of my mutuals and watching from now on-

Tw dec 18 , grief (Idk if i should put them again)

yesterday’s night. I couldn’t finished it but I still watched 2 hours of it. During the first part, my heart was naturally looking for the five of them but couldn’t find them. It was hard and the harsh reality suddenly hurted me

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I realize that I couldn’t expect myself to see them all together anymore and even if my heart wanted to, it would not work. And then I started missing Jonghyun even more but I was alone.

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It was lonely because no one in my real life could understand it but even more because I feel like I can not talk about it here even if we are all sharing this same feeling. Every days we tweet about missing each members but a lot of us feel wrong-

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to even say it. I miss Jonghyun. We miss him a lot everyday. But I feel wrong to just say it. « Will I trigger my mutual ?, Is it ok to feel that way ?, Am I wrong for feeling that ? » It is what my mutuals told me whan talking about it.

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We are all hiding behind a smile and positivity but all know that it is not right to do so. We are all in this together and should feel more comfortable talking about it, repressing your feelings will just make it harder to go though it.

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You have the right to express your feelings. You have the right to say you miss him as much as the others members even if it will be for longer.

I used to be jealous of non-shawols for being able to say it freely without being scared of themselves but-

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now after going through kshawols kakao chat, I felt even more jealous because of the way they talk about missing him, they are all there for each others, comforting and talking about things he did and crying together.

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But on here, we are all stuck. This is why it is harder to grow from it. They all says we shouldn’t reduce him to what happened but it is just a way for us to stay stuck in the past. I think it is a great example to talk about the bitchina situation,

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A lot of us are unable to listen to it because of the time the song came out, we were still hurt and attached it to our pain. Yes, It is not right to tw the song but It is the same as we are using tw to simply says we are hurt and miss him

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You miss him. You deeply miss him and it is okay. It is completely normal to miss him. You are hurt and in pain and it is okay. It is completely normal to be hurt and in pain. You are human and feelings are normals.

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He loved us and still does from there. He said that he would stay by our side even if we were in different universe. We all should do the same and be there for each other. We can all relate to eachother and that’s why makes us stronger.

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We will grow healthy together while supporting our members.
Thank you to everyone, sincerely I am thankful to each one of you all. I love you shawols ♡