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I JUST WANT TO SHARE TO Y& #39;ALL SMTH, just a useless thread which u can just ignore, but need some advice yow.
#LDR
LDR, what a fucking experience, a thread.
#LDR
LDR, what a fucking experience, a thread.
I met this guy online, you can call him Adrien. So, we& #39;ve been chatting for quite a long time then one day, he invited me to his ball as his date. He already assumed that we& #39;re together, even tho I didn’t even say yes! I didn’t even know he was courting me, tf.
My younger self was naive. I agreed to be his partner. He lives far away from me btw, and coincidentally, my mother and I were headed toward there for a vacation so all is good, I thought. My mother was okay with it too cause she thought he was a nice guy, which was true.
The month i was with Adrien, it was kinda fun. He& #39;s so sweet to me, and all his efforts should be highly praised. He& #39;s the epitome of "a perfect boyfriend", tbh.
You know the cliche part of stories, where a girl changed a guy into someone better, yep that& #39;s me alright, based on him tho.
I agree, i kinda fell for him but not that deep. I mean who wouldn’t?? Everything was so new to me so I was vulnerable. But the first red flag was shown when the day had come where he took my first kiss.
I’m a kind of high school girl who had been on a stage where u thought a relationship was all about the spark and all the flattery.
But even tho, relationships aint based on spark, the kiss was weird. It felt like it was only physical contact. I didn’t feel the warmth, or the comfort or even my heartbeat. 2nd, 3rd and many had passed, but it still felt weird, empty.
I met this guy online, you can call him Adrien. So, we& #39;ve been chatting for quite a long time then one day, he invited me to his ball as his date. He already assumed that we& #39;re together, even tho I didn’t even say yes! I didn’t even know he was courting me, tf.
My younger self was naive. I agreed to be his partner. He lives far away from me btw, and coincidentally, my mother and I were headed toward there for a vacation so all is good, I thought. My mother was okay with it too cause she thought he was a nice guy, which was true.
The month i was with Adrien, it was kinda fun. He& #39;s so sweet to me, and all his efforts should be highly praised. He& #39;s the epitome of "a perfect boyfriend", tbh.
You know the cliche part of stories, where a girl changed a guy into someone better, yep that& #39;s me alright, based on him tho.
I agree, i kinda fell for him but not that deep. I mean who wouldn’t?? Everything was so new to me so I was vulnerable. But the first red flag was shown when the day had come where he took my first kiss.
I’m a kind of high school girl who had been on a stage where u thought a relationship was all about the spark and all the flattery.
But even tho, relationships aint based on spark, the kiss was weird. It felt like it was only physical contact. I didn’t feel the warmth, or the comfort or even my heartbeat. 2nd, 3rd and many had passed, but it still felt weird, empty.
The time had come where my mom and i need to go to our hometown. The day I was away from him felt really lonely! I was really missing him so much, but that only lasted for a few days or weeks. I was busy and didn& #39;t have time for him and my feelings for him were fading.
I admit that my love for him was shallow, I know it. But u can& #39;t blame me, I entered a relationship where I didn& #39;t even know how it started
Months passed and I realized our relationship wouldn& #39;t work. He was the only one who is holding onto his fucking relationship and me being a btch here aint giving enough time for him. I WAS BAD I KNOW, but if u don& #39;t love the person, you& #39;re not inspired to make a move.
I TRIED TO BREAK UP WITH HIM FOR A HUNDRED TIMES but i failed. He was too strong and.....suicidal. That& #39;s my biggest concern. He already attempted suicide a few times before, and even his family told me that i improved his life.
Every time I tried to break up with him, he left uncomfy messages about giving up and stuff.
SOmetimes, he would run away from home and would leave his phone. He wouldn& #39;t even care about his education, because for him, he was only doing it for me. He made me his world, his top prio, his everything AND I FUCKING HATE IT.
Not just as a gf but also as a fellow human, i hate it that he was being so selfless and selfish at the same time. I want him to do stuff for himself and not for others, I want him to love himself. So i believed that by breaking up, he would find a deserving someone.
We broke up for like few days and that didn& #39;t turn quite good. He stopped eating for like 3 days AND forcing me to be back together and ME BEING A FUCKING SOFT KITTEN, "okay I& #39;m here, I& #39;m back" afraid that he would really die cause if he did, I might as well.
I made a deal with him. If we would meet again and I still wouldn’t fall for him, ill leave him for good. Obviously, he didn’t agree with it but had no choice. And i think, we will meet again in 2 yrs or so (fuck, 2 yrs of hardship)
And months passed till now, I still don’t love him and my neutral feelings for him were turned to hatred and annoyance. I find him disturbing, a hindrance. He& #39;s being a fucking needy and clingy bf.
He always says I love u like 5 times in a sentence and use our endearment for at least 10 times in a sentence. AND I FUCKING HATE IT.
I WANT TO FUCKING GHOST HIM AND ALL THAT BUT I CANT. I’ll just wait to see if I can love him if were together again. Sometimes I ask myself, what did I do to deserve a man like him.
He really loves me, as in sooo freaking much that he can withstand all my coldness and harshness towards him.
