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PSA - this thread is hella long n potentially triggering. Not saying it& #39;s not important jus sayn so y& #39;all know I warned u. n thanks for all the ppl who shared their stories b4 me.
So I& #39;ve been really wrestling with how I shld share my story. It& #39;s hard bc I never rly saw the men around me ever believe women& #39;s stories of abuse. And eventually I think I jus internalized their ignorance for fact. Like it& #39;s kind of hard to not believe the ppl who u look up to
Or even raise you think ,evrything they say seems true. I even ended up ?n my own story. I felt I had to protect the reputation of the men who abused me or I was too "pretty" to get assualted or my story wasn& #39;t "violent" enough to be assault. that& #39;s the BS I& #39;d always talk about
but I nvr took the time to see how n y I really related to these stories. Like I get it now n I wldnt wish it on any1. I whldnt let myself see my own trauma. Like - I will nvr know wats it& #39;s like rmbr my 1st time n laugh or get angry bc I forced myself to forget wat hpnd
and how it hpnd. N Not jus bc I didn& #39;t like the person it hpnd w, but bc I see now he took advantage of me. Not only was I unable to consent but I was expectd to be ok w the fact he took off the condom "for it to work or feel good". Like in reality it wasn& #39;t "tht good" espc not
the 1st time. N thll always be was my intro to sex. Thinkn it was ok bc I chose to get drunk n to not say anything when he took the condom off was wrong. thinkn tht was right way for a guy to take "charge" was wrong I shlntve been pressurd to "consent". Ive acceptd tht not n
acceptd this story, my story, as true even if I didnt want to believe it. Y? bc girls like me can have a story. n no not im too blessed, pretty, or smart to get assualted. n it& #39;s ok I waits so long to say anytng. Even after hearn so many stories n relating to them I still strugld
to see my own pain my own experience with being assualted. And y because i didn& #39;t think he was a bad guy
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="đ" title="Auf den Kopf gestelltes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Auf den Kopf gestelltes Gesicht"> n I culdve said sumthing in the momenthttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="đđŸ" title="Thumbs down (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Thumbs down (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)">. Well fuck tht shit!! wat hpnd was wrong n way more common than it shld be. I wanted to start this thread so others whld feel
comfortable sharing their story. n know it& #39;s ok to learn from ur pain (hidden or not). even as private as I am, I& #39;m sharing my story bc my voice culd help others get the confidence to share theirs. Not to divide but to heal. If we don& #39;t know the ways we hurt others we wont stop.
If you have any stories like mine or even different than mine feel free to follow suit n share below. I think it& #39;s time we break this stigma in our own community so we can have real conversations. It& #39;s not ok so many of us have experienced this abuse and we shld be more honest
about how common this is.
